alright, in the morning i had a few swigs of port and was definitely feeling tipsy, not drunk. then i had a cup of coffee. then i left the house and smoked a lotus joint. when i came back home i was very irritated with my self.. and i decided i would take some nitrous. stupid of me to take psychoactive when feeling bad.

i had about 2/3 of a canister and played some music, then went on the bed and slowly inhaled. it hit me very hard, without having to re-inhale and exhale multiple times. i heard my breathing go weird, sounding like a helicopter. then i blacked out. when i opened my eyes, i had a clear goal. i knew what needed to be done. i had my confidence back. then i felt myself go back into my body, i moved my thumb and i knew i was back. but this time i understood, i was feeling good again.

pretty quickly my feeling of extreme understanding faded, but still can see the jist of what felt.

normally nitrous makes me giggly and dizzy, never has it been this strong. also i barely ever drink coffee, and very little drink...