For the past few weeks I've found it difficult to bring myself to smoke the spice due to I guess what you would call a healthy fear for the molecule.. Others would call it being a baby

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Well today i took .5 mg of alprazolam and found that I was able to smoke multiple times with no pre-anxiety/fear whatsoever. I started with 25 mg loaded in the healthstone(2 stones that sandwhich the spice) while listning to "one day i wish to have this kind of time" by OTT, and I found that there was something about that song that is unexplainably related to spice travels.
I had something happen that never happened to me ever before. I couldn't call it a breakthrough to hyperspace, but by no means was this any sort of misfire, it was just a kind of trip that is totally unprecedented to me.. I should mention that before this point I could NEVER smoalk while listning to music, it was always just awful..
But this time the music was EVERYTHING.. I felt like the composer of the song had specifically made some kind of magical bond between the song and spice travels.. it was like I just figured out some amazing secret that only when you smoalk while listning to this song will "THIS" take place..
I'm no good at trying to describe experiences that aren't exactly translatable in my native language but all I can say is that what happened in these sessions was so vastly different from the dozens of other times I've smoked spice that I won't even really try..
So after the experience I had while listning to that song I tried it again a few times with my own music (soundcloud.com/djlec) and found the EXACT same thing happened just not to the extent it occured the first time. (my music is mostly inspired from spice travels and ALL inspired from psycedellics so this made sense)..
I guess my question is has anyone else used alprazolam before blasting off and what was your experience with it? And in your opinion does it take away any from the learning aspect of the experience? Because for me it made it more like something comparable to a quick fun/easy going but at the same time amazingly deep and utterly ineffable journey as opposed to the usual experience that shakes me to the core and is to some extent quite consistent in what takes place.
also please ignore spelling and grammar mistakes in this post, its late and I just needed to tell/ask this someone before i pass out
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