I've been a bit slack posting recently, life has been very busy. I am using changa to meditate and focus my life. With a lot of positive results as I change my life and job. Working towards setting up my own company which has social goals rather than profit ones.

However recently my grandmother passed away at 87 after a short illness. I was there towards the end and although very stressful with family issues and seeing her in pain managed to talk and say what needed to be said. I was closer to my grandmother than I am with my mother so her death even though expected and relatively pain free is emotionally stressful.

I have although been very down and was cautious of having a changa session because of my sadness, I didn't want things to turn nasty because I was in a bad place. However I rarely smoke enough changa to break through I prefer to remain in the rotating rooms topping up and concentrating my mind and using the session to help calm and meditate on any issues that I want to address.

So in the end I decided to do a similar thing and think about my grandmother and my sadness. I found this extremely cleansing I felt her presence and at the end I was peaceful, contented and have taken strength from her passing. Choosing to use the sadness as driver to complete my life goals.

Has anyone else used DMT/Changa in this way to help bereavement issues? Do you think that in some way using DMT skips the normal bereavement process and is actually a cop out? I now am peaceful and contented, knowing that she has passed but is still with me.

Interested to know the thoughts and experience of the Nexus in this matter.

Well, I once drank ayahuasca and saw my grandmother (still living), enter a certain white room, meeting again with her dead husband. Not sure if this had any significance for me in terms of letting her go (she's old and ill), but i can certainly see that ayahuasca might be beneficial in achieving this kind of healing.

I hope you will find some peace!