I don't know if it's directly attributed to my Salvia use, but it sure reminds me of the feeling I've encountered in many of the high-breakthrough salvia experiences..

..It's this feeling, this notion that we cannot escape reality, that we are embedded in a matrix of space and time, that our humaness brings into existance, and then once we depart humaness we still have to abide by whatever variables equate the next life, and then it goes on and on, like an infinite loop.

Its startling, because it's idea that there IS no way out, that we just have different options and a bit of freedom here and there, but it's wierd, where the hell did anything come from anyways...

What on Earth, are we doing on Earth? Haha..

I guess it's a reason to behave and to appreciate and respect, so when we leave, we can have confidence that we've done the best to our ability, and have no fear of the yawning grave..

I hear ya. My phone doesnt let me quote but your paragraph ending "infinite loop" echoes my feelings about a potential truth of reality. Im not firmly convinced that this is how reality operates but ive had experiences that make it seem like a distinct possibillity.

It's sort of like the "metaphysical law of conservation". Besides, where exactly is it that you would like to escape to? Would having a consciousness where you cannot contemplate such things be more comforting?

Live it up and enjoy it while you can.

I think the only thing you can do is appreciate existence.

But i do have some things i would like to add, and they are only my opinions and im not trying to preach.
I believe Salvia could be the catalyst of the feeling of being "trapped", I believe Salvia lowers your vibration/frequency to the point where you could be experiencing a 2d or even 1 dimensional reality, and i do believe that a 0 dimensional reality is a black hole which means there would be no time and you would just be stuck in light, if that makes sense.
I believe that being a positive energy will only increase the dimensions of the reality your experiencing and therefore having more freedom, more choices and a better understanding of creating/controlling your own reality.

Funny how when life is beautiful you feel like you have all the freedom you could ask for, and would welcome progressing through the blessing of reality for an eternity. But sometimes life kinda sucks, and can feel like a trap that you're helpless to escape from. Even if this world is a trap(which I don't believe one bit, even after having experienced the convincingly real "infinite loop" ), the one thing you can control is how you react to it. Try to laugh at the absurdity of it and continue on, living it up while you can, like House said.

I know exactly what you mean. I have had that feeling many times in my life, on and off drugs. It seems to me to come from an intense experience of existentialism. I enjoy it to a certain degree though. Even though it might be somewhat painful. Its just the idea of the "endless loop" that really will get to me. And that existence exists within the loop. And without the loop existence cannot exist for there would be no repetition in which existence could exist. Oh how would it feel to not exist?