Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think. - Jean De La Bruyere
we get so caught up in living our lives that i think we often forget to give thanks for life itself. i did not give myself breath. i did not create myself. so why should i not give thanks for being given this opportunity to be...to help...to love? He gave me life...who am i to not give it back to Him?
i remember the moment i realized how interconnected we were: i had this vision of a tiny little ant rejoicing at the top of his lungs...i saw him standing on what looked like a globe and i could see his tiny silhouette standing on the world, arms flailing, him jumping and celebrating. he found his place. he knew that he was just a part of it all and was so thankful to finally see that. and tool's song parabola was playing
"Twirling round with this familiar
parabole.
Spinning, weaving round each new
experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and
celebrate this chance to be alive and
breathing, this chance to be alive and
breathing.
This body holding me reminds me of my
own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. we
are eternal.
all this pain is an illusion."
i think that people spend too much time trying to define themselves outwardly. you are who you are. you are not special. you are not significant. you do not matter. you are just an ant with a sense of awareness. you still belong to the colony...do not fool yourself. but find peace in this. you don't have to live up to anyone's expectations but your own. embrace your nothingness, it's all you are. stop taking yourselves so seriously. IT DOESN'T MATTER...YOU DON'T MATTER.
whether i be the mouth of God or His pinky toe, i'm still a part of Him, here to serve a purpose. i was already given a purpose, i don't need to go and find myself...i just need to listen and my TRUE SELF will show itself. i spent a large portion of my life (i'm only 27 so not long, i know) thinking that i needed to find my place in this world. little did i know that i was born right in my place and all i had to do was embrace the divinity that God had created.
i once cared about possessions until i realized that possessions were just as fake as the money i bought them with. this is not to say that i still don't like my toys, but i don't care about material things anymore. man made money as well as the things that man buys with money. meaning...it's just a fabrication within this "existence". nothing to get carried away with/by. this computer i'm typing on...isn't real. the only things that are real, were made by Him.
as i grow older, the more and more thankful i become. i have been given life! life! the chance to experience. the opportunity to love. how could i not be thankful?
through the ups and downs...the joys and sorrows...the prosperity and poverty...the health and the sickness...the good and the bad...the right and the wrong...the love and the hate...the forest and the desert...the air and the water...the brothers and sisters...the night and the day...the life and the death...i am so thankful to be given the opportunity to experience this moment...this time...this life...this breath. so thankful that I AM able to just be. so through it all...i will remain thankful that I AM.
embrace your nothingness...it's all you are...