These are the psychedelics I have tried in my lifetime:2c-i,2c-e,Salvinorum A,Psilocbyin/Psilocin(P. cubensis,I will be growing P. azurescens soon and cannot wait for the experience),LSA,LSD,4-HO-MIPT,Harmala alkaloids,Mescaline(along with the other psychoactive alkaloids in San Pedro cacti),DMT(minimal effects),Yopo Snuff(5-HO-DMT,although the seeds I have I believe could be high in 5-MeO-DMT due to the effects I had,but the physical symptoms were the most unpleasant feeling I had ever experience),MDMA,MDA.
I think this covers the psychedelics I have consumed within the past four years.I am eighteen right now.My favorites were LSD-25,psilocybin,mescaline,and yopo if you take out the physical symptoms.
Lsd had me sorting through contradictions for nearly twelve hours.Seeing the extent a person takes one single thought is insane beyond comprehension.During this trip the phrase,"This is what the human mind represses,acid lets you see things as they really are.People only speak because they do not know how to feel." sums up the general content of the experience. It had helped me find comfortability in myself, I would recommend this compound to anyone if they would like to find piece of mind and to sort through and straighten up the mess they feel inside.
Psilocin and Psilocybin had taught me I need to make myself my number one priority,not in a selfish way,but in the most selfless way possible. I had worried to much about everyone else,all the advice I had given throughout the years people had clung to like the meaning of time and space itself. It was almost as if I held all meaning their lives, as they percieved it. I had my views and beliefs,as well as my own personal balance of going through life. I had,for some reason,felt obligated to put these people's needs above my own.I had helped their lives I am sure of that at one period of time, but the ways their lives were not helped,they expected I had a universal meaning or bold statement to make that could show them the whole way.I knew that they would have to find this on there own,but during my trip on four grams of P. cubensis,I had realized it was their time to find that meaning and let go and find my own way.At the time I had a lot of addictions to pharmaceutical drugs,I still have a broken home and questions unanswered(these questions are not as important as the questions inside myself I have yet to answer),and I had enough to deal with myself to begin to help others in the ways they needed.Maybe leaving them with the words I had,had helped them the most in the end.
Mescaline had taught me total focus,a balance of peace and pain within,and a meaning for life.I would say more about mescaline,this honestly was one of the most enjoyable trips I had ever had in my life,but words could never tell everything.I may also add by the time the trip had started dulling down,I had tried to fall asleep.I still do not know if I had fallen asleep or not,but I had seen the world unravel from space and time,starting out so simple and going extremely complex to see if it could bring itself back to a simplistic point of view.We were all a part of this.
Yopo snuff had taught me true beauty and fear,the physical symptoms felt almost like dying,to the point I felt I was going insane.What I had seen was truly amazing,right before I had purged I had seen and felt a place filled with space and absolutely nothing except my own consciousness,I opened my eyes and threw up.I had then proceeded to closing my eyes again and I kept saying to myself,"too much,I should have gone to work today(haha,ironically I knew at the time and had been informed before hand work was cancelled)"Then out of darkness,there was a brilliant multi colored swirl emerging from the depths of myself,more and more had formed and there were illuminating lights everywhere.The visual distortions I had seen with my eyes wide open where colorful geometric patterns that were unlike any other I had seen before,they were static and eccentric jumping out at me almost to my face and I cannot lie they were beautiful but they scared me(not bad enough to the point of not loving it all),my thoughts were so out of sorts by the time it had worn off,my body had felt terrible but I knew I would be alright in time.
College is the only way I will be able to study what I love in a little more peaceful environment,with less controversy,but more in your face criticism which I am happy to endure.I would like to spend a year in a shamanic tribe to learn their ways,the way people are conditioned by this nation disturbs me,it is sad.Seeing so many in pain without full realization brings tears to my eyes sometimes,especially my brothers.Once some of my work is published,I will be able to isolate undiscovered compounds and synthesize new psychedelics and travel the world.I will also be taken more seriously than if I had not gone to college,I would like to bring a voice for people with similar intentions,I only wish to help.My lifetime career I will be persuing questions and answers within.
Embereptilian