Witness to Humanity
Posts: 229 Joined: 13-Mar-2011 Last visit: 23-Apr-2020 Location: Consciousness
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I was so close! I sat there, with my new gvg. Lighting it with a normal lighter. First attempt I inhaled a decent amount not even noticing. I was watching the chamber to see if I could see it vape up. Before I even realized it the whole tube was clouded. I held in for around 15 seconds. Next hit. Still uncertain about how much was inhaled as I wasn't noticing the pipe fill. Then finally the third hit. Things were moving, my mind filled with colors and racing thoughts. Tool's Lateralus was the only sounds I heard. Then I coughed and expelled the smoke too soon. I felt great though and without any warning I started to vomit. I didn't feel sick, but I think this may have beena mental reaction to almost breaking through. I feel I have a strong ego that is resisting this kind of release from reality. It is the kind that fears death. The kind that fears the unknown. I want it so bad but a part of me still fights that feeling! Soon it won't have a choice. Disclaimer:All these thoughts,
words arranged in this message,
come from the Tao
and return to the Tao.
Yet they do not touch it.
Each of us will perceive the message,
Yet to each our own interpretation.
I'll see you when the river meets us
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DMT-Nexus member
Posts: 5267 Joined: 01-Jul-2010 Last visit: 13-Dec-2018
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Don't be afraid to take baby steps. Get used to the [hyper]space. Spend some time getting to know what you're working with, "learn to swim" first and then you'll find that jumping off the high dive won't be as scary [edit]: the nexus automatically capitalized s-w-i-m above, but I think it's obvious what I meant  "Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind" - Albert Einstein
"The Mighty One appears, the horizon shines. Atum appears on the smell of his censing, the Sunshine- god has risen in the sky, the Mansion of the pyramidion is in joy and all its inmates are assembled, a voice calls out within the shrine, shouting reverberates around the Netherworld." - Egyptian Book of the Dead
"Man fears time, but time fears the Pyramids" - 9th century Arab proverb
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Witness to Humanity
Posts: 229 Joined: 13-Mar-2011 Last visit: 23-Apr-2020 Location: Consciousness
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Well I am certainly not afraid of taking baby steps, just that big leap gets me. I'm just impatient to see the beauty I suppose. Disclaimer:All these thoughts,
words arranged in this message,
come from the Tao
and return to the Tao.
Yet they do not touch it.
Each of us will perceive the message,
Yet to each our own interpretation.
I'll see you when the river meets us
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DMT-Nexus member
Posts: 28 Joined: 11-Apr-2011 Last visit: 29-Jun-2011 Location: MindSpace
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DMT Psychonaut wrote:Well I am certainly not afraid of taking baby steps, just that big leap gets me. I'm just impatient to see the beauty I suppose. I guess the beauty can turn into uglyness, if you don't give yourself the time you need. Be patient. You got all the time in the world to get there. No hurry... Peace
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Posts: 24 Joined: 22-Apr-2011 Last visit: 09-Oct-2019 Location: Diggers Edge
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I used to have a strong ego too but through the use of psychedelics I've become a much more peaceful, open person. Glad to see someone else on a similar road. Create your own reality my friend, find yourself  Quote:Give up already. Some people say you should never give up but don't be foolish. Knowing when to give up is important for both survival and is vital to being able to learn effectively. Giving up on some tasks gives you more time and energy to focus on other more important tasks. This may confuse or annoy you, some people have more ambition and determination than sense, but I'll give you some examples to illustrate my point:
You should give up on being like everyone else so you can be true to yourself. Give up on an easy mundane life so that you can live life sincerely. Give up on feeling safe and secure so you can live your dreams. Give up on being perfect so you can be your best. Life is all about trade-offs. There is no right or wrong way to live your life but that doesn't mean you can act however you want and still achieve anything you want. To add something you must remove something else. To achieve something you must give up on something else. .
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DMT-Nexus member
Posts: 83 Joined: 05-Mar-2011 Last visit: 18-Oct-2011 Location: USA
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I was listening to Lateralus today too while I was smoking Spice. Just keep hittin the pipe my friend, you'll break through. It's all about letting go of your fear. This morning was my first breakthrough. Another good song to listen to is Jambi and Thomas by A Perfect Circle. Very spiritual songs. TOOL + Spice = awesome All statements by Eternal_LVX are fictional and completely insane and should not be taken seriously. Do not attempt any of these procedures without the supervision of your own eternally divine soul. "The real secret of magic is that the world is made of words, and that if you know the words that the world is made of you can make of it whatever you wish." - Terrence McKenna My first breakthrough experience!
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