again. this time, very powerful but clearer, and more ordered, and slower, clearer. not scary. colored connecting designs, in a big room. they wanted to show me something, looked like a machine, lots of designs, one of the images looked like a cylinder, another had pipes and hoses going into and out of it. slow, calm, clear. no buzzing this time, was using a biofeedback method to keep blood pressure down, felt pretty ok, till the end, then some bit of nausea. asked them to look at my breathing, and why having trouble with it. dont think i saw any being. dont know what to say. they wanted me to look at these designs, which were colored precise drawings. dont know what to say, still heavy with effects now. very.

Sorry, clearer headed now. measured out 20-25 milligrams, pipe probably still had a bit left in it from last time. killed all lights, late afternoon rainy, played icaros on headset lying on table. Was nervous so put a LOT of ritual into it, treating it like it was an ayahuasca trip, with sacred tobacco, smudging, one candle, meditating a bit, pouring love and respect at the gvg, etc. Only managed one long steady hit, saw the white smoke this time, felt a bit in the lungs, no taste, no smell, completed single long hit but not before effects began, set pipe down, held it in for 5-10 seconds, knew i wouldnt be able to take a second or third. As I said before was much calmer and nicer than before, not pushy or forceful or loud; more patient. My thoughts were in the background as a narrative, the woman singing the shipibo icaro echoed clearly inside the big room in my head, and my thoughts behind that with a commentary; hmmm. wow. cool. thats like nothing I described online. I had no idea what I was talking about. Oh look. now its changed, looks like diagrams or schematics of some sort. well...now...that looks like a machine of some sort... and so on. I dont really get euphoria with this stuff, a sort of heavy calm, nor do I understand why people think its spiritual. I think its very technological myself. Its neat, although the part where youre still partly under and think youve been addressing somebody behind it all is a bit psychotic. It shows the kind of influence others reiteration of the whole alien thing penetrates to structure the experience...

Sorry, remember thinking, Hmm. I think they want me to build something...Also, my phone rang right in the middle of all this. heard it ring, heard the voicemail tone. again, remember thinking; an echo in a big room of cevs going on very actively, "you have GOT to be freaking kidding me"...

Hi doc savant

Welcome back. Wow, sounds like an amazing experience. I think many get out of spice what they put into it. I was looking for spiritual answers and obsessed with cats and science fiction when I began and guess what? DMT is a sacrament for me, I see cat entities and get science fiction themed trips.

Great job remembering and describing something that is hard to bring back.

Ain't the GVG wonderful?

Peace & Love

Hi, Mom : )

I agree, there are many aspects of my trips which are OBVIOUSLY taken from my set and setting; as amplifications, distortions, or thematic extensions. Obviously, dmt space is you-space on drugs. Literally. Im a rationalist, an empiricist, a scientist, a critic...ive never been spiritual my entire life, and dont understand even how to be so; hence my trips are machine perfect and structural.

Love you, spicey!!! And thank you for opening the door, again. The gvg is awesome; my bracing myself for burning plastic taste/smell was totally unnecessary; it is perfection incarnate!

you are my lovely lovely mommy