This may be a redundant post, but...
When I returned from my last excursion...first of all, let me describe the setting: I was in my jacuzzi outside without the jets on, it was dark~approximately 9 p.m., the kids were upstairs sleeping and the wife went to the grocery or something...there was a cold front coming in and it was cloudy but the wind was fierce and the trees were blowing mightily. A train was passing through in the distance, and I was by myself. I smoked the last of my changa, about a third of a joint's worth, and journeyed. Not a full-on breakthrough but wonderful nonetheless...I remember as I returned and everything was normal but with an afterglow to it and everything was at peace, and I felt very comforted and warm, and it almost felt like it was feminine in nature, at the core of my being. I didn't feel feminine, but the lingering feel, the residual peace had a feminine quality which I can only describe as what I may think a maternal feel would be like. Does this make sense? I just read another post somewhere on the Nexus Nursery asking if females could or could not breakthrough (why wouldn't they?) and it made me remember this come-down.
This feminine feeling felt like...forgiveness, peace, acceptance, love. Has anyone else felt this way before? Again, it wasn't a full-on breakthrough with the accompanying dissociation but I felt like I made contact. The sounds of the wind and train melded into each other and began their gated filter-sweep effect I'm used to, the trees took on a liquid quality as they blew in the wind, and I felt the aforementioned feelings...but again, no dissociation. It was almost as if I was being cradled by a feminine entity...
Now, I haven't had a healthy relationship with my mother, it was very crazy in my household growing up, I do have acknowledged issues with my mother (I'm almost 39), but I do function and have a solid relationship with my wife and kids. The reason I'm asking this is I'm wondering if my issues with my mother carried over (I opened my subconscious) or is the 'feminine' common with DMT-traveling? Or both?
I'm beginning to understand the teaching quality of DMT. DMT is truly a gift from God. It has to be. Just thinking...
Everything posted here is hypothetical in nature and represents only the ramblings of an aspiring fiction-writer (d)elving into character study for fame and monetary gain. None of the above has ever happened nor is intended to be taken at face value.
Psychic Head
And again, verily I say unto you, all wholesome herbs God hath ordained for the constitution, nature, and use of man—Every herb in the season thereof, and every fruit in the season thereof; all these to be used with prudence and thanksgiving.
Doctrine and Covenants 89