Yesterday night SWIM decided to take a trip alone. He snorted 50 mg mixed 50:50 with meal.
It feels like the spice is absorbed in the nose and each particle transforms into pain and later into a beautiful hyper-dimensional pattern. SWIM had not had a real breakthrough. From time to time he could feel his body breathing.
He saw beautiful patterns, and it felt for him like he could not "look" directly to consume these patterns but like with a "peripheral vision". It felt like he was not getting the whole "picture"...
As soon as the patterns start to decrease, SWIM decided to open his eyes and stand up. That was awesome!
For the first time in his life SWIM witnessed his body as a separate part of him (before that he knew about it only from literature). He clearly felt to not be the body but consciousness using the body. The body felt like a suit, like a puppet SWIM was controlling from another dimension. It felt like being outside of the body but not referred to the physical dimension, since SWIM did not see his body from the outside. He rather looked into this world through the eyes of his body (and could not see with eyes closed). He looked into the mirror and was amazed to witness his body. The body felt like a tree: each branch in a tree has the same significance. In contrast, the face of the human body has a higher significance than for instance an elbow from the perspective of the ego. SWIM washed his face with cold water and it felt like washing an elbow...
Slowly but surely SWIMs spirit was returning into the body. SWIM decided to take a walk outside integrating his experience...
Life is a mystery. Enjoy every moment of it.
Do not try to figure it out.