When i was 16 i read books by ignorant people who had no direct experience . They talked about knowledge , power and plant spirits and allys .
One of the plants they talked about was datura . It was said to be the most powerfull but most dangerous ally . All the other plant allys were easy to use / control / dominate . Datura was said to be the only one that one could never beat ...... one could only live with it = make a sort of dangerous truce where you permanently have to have one eye looking over your shoulder . Where one could never relax and one had to live as if one was being pemanently stalked by a dangerous spirit .
I chose datura as my ally and (ab)used it for several years regularly . I smoked and ate all the different parts of it and injected pure atropin and ate pure scopolamine in different doses .
I made creams out of extracts and rubbed it on my forarms or the soles of my feet or on my temples . I also bought asthma tea . The dose was so small that it was hardly noticable .
Atropin was a total waste of time . Scopolamine was the " easyest " to dose and the plant parts were totaly unpredictable . The reasons for that have already been explained here .
The dose and the effects are unpredictable . A small does one day will do nothing and the same dose a few days later will have a strong effect .
I never had a good trip and i have never heard of anyone who has had a good trip . The only thing i learned was that datura is not a recreational drug and i have never seen or heard of anyone who used it regularly that didnt show clear signs of mental illness / confusion .
It is a deleriant = there isnt much point in takeing it because it makes one ...... delerious = you cant make head nor tail of it and you cant trust it ......... it also messes your memory up = you cant remember what you have just done or said and you cant remember a lot of what happened afterwards .
There are 4 doses that are so near together and the content so variable that its not possible to be sure what a dose will do . After the doses that have already been described there is another one . Sometimes a dose that would normaly kill doesnt . I had it .
It was on pure scopolamin . It took 2 - 3 days to get to the peak . The peak lasted fo about 6 weeks and the come down lasted about 2 years . The effects are like a chemicaly induced psychosis where i could trust NOTHING . Typical effects are that you see someone , talk to them , hug them ...... and then they get up and walk away through a wall . I met the devil and fought with him and " beat " him . What i didnt realise then was that the devil doesnt exist . It was a projection from deeper in my mind . Not language symbolism . The subconscious projecting a stereotype image into my brain when i wanted to do something dangerous . I " beat " the image ....... and then went on to do something that was a mistake = I didnt best it i ignored it and ......... walked naked through the streets howling like a wolf . In the state i was in i would have killed anyone without batting an eyelid .
In a way datura is a test ally ......... the test is .......... how naive are you ? = IF a person does sensible research in the net they wouldnt try to use the plant recreationaly or in an ignorant attempt to gain " shamanistic power " ......... that means stear clear of web sites and forums where people are talking about daemons , spirits and allys as if they realy exist . Those are ways for people to describe things that they dont understand . Those spirits , daemons and allys dont exist ........ except in peoples fantasy .
People who decide to try datura inspite of the facts should ask themselves why it isnt illegal ? The answer is that governments dont think that anyone would be stupid enough to abuse it .
The sad truth is that the most people who use drugs abuse them and themselves . Drugs are not for everyone ....... and it seems that a hell of a lot of people with mental problems and latent mental problems are attracted to them = Mostly not good for them and others who use drugs .
I am autism spectum ........ please dont burn me at the stake for being honest .