anrchy wrote:I'm glad you learned from this experience super. I disagree that it had to happen though. Large doses like that can have severe psychological effects on a person for months. I went through weeks of dealing with an inability to fully accept that this reality was real. I consistently had thoughts that I would never be normal again. And truthfully, I never returned to my normal self. I AM different. Luckily none of the differences I percieve as being negative or hindering. I am a different person now and it took a long time to cope with being different.
I hope that those new to DMT or new to dosing other people can see the lesson in this. If you dose someone you need to know how to go about it. I believe an introduction dose is important. Somewhere around the 15mg range. That way you know how it will effect you. Increase dosage accordingly. If you know your technique isn't quite right, increasing dosage is not the proper way to compensate.
Definitely,
I researched for years, took small doses many times and prepared immensely for the breakthrough. It was MUCH further than I had anticipated. And even though I read, read, read I never once researched integration quite like I did afterwards
. I am a different person as well. It was not so much like TMK said that it is not dangerous, unless you fear death by wonder, terror and astonishment. It actually feels like you died from terror as you flew through some vortex/portal into the universe and it separates your body quantum mechanically as the sound of a UFO engine roars. You feel like you are going so fast, at the speed of light... that it is not possible. You are going to die and then the UFO engine gets to such a high ferocious frequency it literally blasts you apart and you think your brains went splattering all over your room.
I learned a lot but I am not sure if I am a different person because it changed how my brain works, that it spiritually changed me, that I saw something so significantly higher than I can comprehend, that it scared the living soul out of me that it scared me into place, it scared me into believing in this life and living it to its fullest potential. It did all of those things. It is nothing to mess with, especially if you are giving someone their first glimpses. I would not recommend giving people breakthroughs.