Occurring - 2 Cs, 2 Rs. To See. To Ahh.
Rest assured, I have been following this thread and topic with great interest but have had no time to respond until now.
Quote:I don't see how accepting that I doesn't exist would change a single thing about my life
I understand the inherent contradiction here - it's not my life at all, it is simply - life. I have also come to understand what would change.
There would be no self consciousness, as there is no self to be conscious of.
There would be no reason to be hurt or offended as there is no-one to feel offended.
I've looked at cause and effect. That nothing ever happens in the past or the future, things only ever occur in the present. There is no past, there is only moments of the present that have already occurred. There is no future, there are only moments of the present that have not yet occurred.
As much as I seem to now be understanding this (yes, I am aware of the huge contradictions in saying I all the way through this post but this is simply for ease of understanding and to remain distanced from the syntactic gymnastics that could more than likely obfuscate my point) more and more, it still feels very much to me like a concept, a philosophical premise and a thought experiment.
Yes, it is credible that there is no I. Yes, it may even be true. It is more a stretch of belief to think that an I exists at all. Apply Occam's razor - what is more likely? That there is a pilot at the helm, guiding this body, thinking, deciding, discerning, but essentially, having no real control at all - or - that there's no pilot necessary, that the thoughts, decisions and discernment occur because they are functions of the brain of a body that navigates this world according to it's sum total of life experiences, it's environment, it's emotions.
I'm not at all arguing for predestination, it is simply that the will to choose and do things occur without anyone to do the choosing or doing. Simply, a choice is made, then the choice is followed.
This being said: no great awakening, no seeing the world differently - no physical or mental change that is so commonly reported after learning about this.
I almost feel like increased thinking of this topic could lead to delusion, apathy and daily life (socialising, working, decision making) becoming markedly more difficult.
It can be said, of course, - and I'm sure Cieran would agree - that 'this is your ego desperately trying to cling to the lie, this is the parasite holding on for dear life'.
I say delusion as I always hold the position that I am utterly wrong in all the things I do and think, I think self-doubt is an important trait to have when seeking anything close to truth.
I say apathy as in, because I can see all of this being a form of detachment from difficult things in life. There seems to be an element of picking and choosing involved.
For example, I can never be offended or hurt because there is no one to feel offended or hurt, therefore there is no reason to acknowledge such emotions as the you who is apparently being offended, does not exist. You see this all the time in cases of severe abuse, the sense of self is completely shut down and people are left observing not first hand but externally as way of coping with trauma or extreme distress.
You discover something terrible has just happened, a major accident or the death of a loved one "this can't be happening!!". It is a denial of reality.
This is a coping mechanism - it gives detachment from the felt experience. Suddenly, I am not experiencing this - it is simply occurring.
You are not being offended or hurt, but being offended or hurt is occurring. It does this, so that a rational decision (as opposed to a hysterical) can be made.
Now at the same time, take positive moods - joy, empathy, love. Though there is no one to be feeling these emotions, these emotions are occurring, and thus, can be acknowledged. "This is happening!"
I don't think any of our felt experiences should be denied, they are simply experiences, they are simply occurring - and all of our life experiences, the good, the bad can be learned from and that knowledge shared.
Apathy. Hate it. Don't want it. Don't want to feel detached to the things that make me feel uncomfortable. This is what is felt so unsettling about the "no me" thing.
Finally, and least important, difficulty in day to day life. This, I feel, is all about tact and approach. Enlightened ones would feel quickly alienated if they were constantly interrupting and derailing conversations with people to let them know that "no,
you're not hungry - hunger is occurring!" or my personal favourite "I don't love you. Love is occurring". I think my partner would leave me even if I hinted at approaching the topic from that point of view!
I hope to god, this does not come across as some sort of rebuttal - it the last thing I want. I sincerely want to gain some understanding whether this is seriously worth pursuing, I find it
very interesting.
Oh and I can no longer get in touch with my friend, as he seems to of have removed his facebook

I'd love to discuss this further with him.
I am a piece of knowledge-retaining computer code imitating an imaginary organic being.