Welcome to the nexus! There is no better place to learn about dmt then here.
I'm a little confused about what you meant. You want to try dmt with someone (not alone like you said) or you dont want to try it all?
Regardless, welcome.
Insanity is past, present, and future pain.
Past pain never dies, otherwise it would not be pain.
Life is present pain.
All unknown and feared is future pain.
Is the absence of pain happiness?
And if constant pain leads to insanity; Can constant insanity destroy the pain?