Hi, this is my first post here but I've used these forums to gather info over the past ~6 months so thankyou everyone for providing great insight.

I've had a bunch of harmalas and a small amount of powdered ACRB sitting in the cupboard for a while now, just felt no need to jump in until it felt like the right time. I take the drug Mirtazapine each day for generalised anxiety disorder and ptsd from time in afghanistan.

I've never done any dmt containing things before. I'd read up about interactions and there was information saying it wasn't too bad and that it has a half life of 20-40 hrs, so before taking the analogue I went 48hrs without taking the Mirtazapine. Last night I boiled 3.5 gms of rue 3 times for about 2 hours each, and 8 gms of ACRB the same. I drank the shot of rue and 45 mins later when I felt a some effects like a subtle floaty feeling and vague black swirls when I closed my eyes I drank 70% of the acacia.

I had already created a nice space with rug and pillows and had a few plants nearby including two trichocereus'. I spent the whole time lying on my back and 95% of the time with eyes closed. After around 20 minutes I start to see bright coloured blocks spinning and clicking into each other kind of like how a rubix cube does. These visuals however were perceived as though in a very small window in the corner of a computer screen and not immersive whatsoever.

I don't want to make this too long explaining every little thing, but there were moments you might describe as 'scary' where things like ugly witches faces were zooming right at me but I was just so disconnected from it all, I didn't give a shit about them so they went away. A lot of the experience which lasted around 2 hours, I found myself very detached and while there were a lot of 'things' appearing in my minds eye there was a large part of me that was pretty much stone cold sober. I was also very unimpressed by it all and there were times when I got very sad about how I felt and how I filter a lot of the world through a lens of basically "this is shit".


Anyway I just thought I'd throw this out there as I'm not sure if my experience was heavily dulled by the lingering medication in my system or perhaps I'd taken too small a dose (I ended up taking a few extra sips about 15 mins in so probably drank 80% of the 8 grams all up).

I've had such wonderful uplifting experiences with cacti - but if I remember correctly I had stopped taken said medication at those times.

All in all I do think I learned some things - primarily that my attitude is really quite atrocious, and I'm left feeling rather depressed today. If you'd like, let me know what you think. thank you.