Hello everyone..... I have been reading posts here for about a month. I've been wanting to try DMT since I first heard about it several years ago.... I've been in a dark place for awhile and have just started to pull out of it the last year by rediscovering my spirituality. I even started getting into my art again..... I missed being creative.
I had a miscarriage about 10 yrs ago and that kicked off my depression, my mother died a few years later and I spiraled. I realized my own mortality and felt I had lost all connection with the Source, that there was nothing after death, just a feeling of emptiness. I reduced it down to this: what did I remember before this life?: nothing. What will I be after this life?: nothing. At the time, that seemed simple, but I struggled with it, flip flopping. It was awful.
Then I happened to come across a show on the paranormal, and found that technology had really come a long way with spirit communication. The spirit/ghost box in particular.... what I once thought was dead in me, was inspired and reborn. I've been studying the afterlife ever since and I don't believe it was an accident finding that show.....
My journey in the last year and especially this last month has got me wanting to discover more, not just for the truth but to deeper my connection with myself and the Source. I've experienced awe inspiring meditations which I attribute to my body's natural production of DMT, but I can't quite breakthrough the veil nor can I remember all that happens, but I know it does. I used the binaural beats meditations and it's very beautiful each time. I'd recommend it to anyone.
So, my next step is to make a brew with what I have here. But I'd like to try passion flower as the MAOI, but am not sure how much to take and also whether capsules or tincture. I'll be working with Desmanthus Illinoesis and have several roots I've pulled from the ground. Could not find the Leptoblus, but have great and beautiful roots of the Illinoesis. I'm not too sure on the process of what part of the root to use, but am currently researching these topics. Any advise would be appreciated.... Will be using the recipe posted here, minus the Harmala add Passionflower.
My intention for the "experience" is to heal first and foremost, secondly I'm seeking my purpose. My life is going in 5 different directions, but I can't choose them all at once. If I could just get some clarity with the help of the Universe in any way, it would be more than beneficial to me. I know I will be shown what I need to see and I accept those terms with love.
THanks for this place, it has been a wealth of knowledge for me. It seems like a safe place to share and evolve.