Okay so I really need to make sense of some things here..becasue I have been TRIPPING on melatonin.
I dont want to get into a discussion of placebo experiences. This is definatly not placebo.
I got a bottle of it a couple weeks back and took 1.5mg sublingual that night..within 15 minutes I was starting to feel really high and sort of sedasted..but with a very distinct tryptamine buzz. I got a little anxious and went to lay in bed..as soon as I was laying there in the dark I started to have colorful hynogogic visions that were reminescent of DMT and psilocybin, and my mind was staring to feel like it was comming apart.
People have described melatonin as "tuning your warp coil" and "lubricating the mind"..and that is exactly what it feels like.
I realize now after taking it maybe 2 times a week for a few weeks that less than 500mics and I just get a mild but pleasant sort of sedated tryptamine feeling and then pass out without any of these psychedelic side effects. Above 500mics and I start to get the hypnogogia and then other effects.
Last night I took just over 1mg sublingual with some querecetin. I dunno what part was due to the querecetin or not..but I started to get some really weird mental effects within 20 minutes or so. I started to feel that same trytpamine buzz in my body and felt sort of stoned so I went to bed. When I got into bed it was like my brain was just flying apart..literally it was as if my thoughts are normally running in a sort of linear 3d mode, and the melatonin state was a non-linear sort of 5d layering and looping. I also began having light visions and felt like I had entered a DMT like state, sort of. It is hard to explain how similar it is to DMT because it differs in some main ways, but that "mental lubrication" effect is something that feels most distinct to melatonin.
I was starting to get really paranoid tossing around in bed at times..not freaking out but just restless and anxious with these visions and weird thought loops. I went into the bathroom at one point and was looking at the wall in the dark as was seeing these things sort of in the wall..but not really..I dunno what to say about it other than there was layers of things, each one at different depths in the walls at what I want to call an "etheric" level. I sat there wondering how the hell something like this is sold at the supermarket. At the time it was sort of like seeing into the matrix or something. I went back to bed and I think I passed out then and had really crazy dreams.
The effects are somewhere inbetween that of a light dose of DMT and a betacarboline..but different also..it's that mental lubing effect..it also has a strong auric quality..like I am laying in bed glowing in different colors all night long..but it is not so up front..none of the visions are. They sort of linger in the background of the mind, but are still present at times on the back of the eyelids..
Now, it is obvious that many people who take melatonin on a regular basis do not experience these effects..but then there are also other reports here and there of people who definatly do seem to experience them. Why this would be I can not say.
Melatonin, being a product of the pineal gland produced in large amounts in long term meditators is interesting though..and a direct conversion to pinoline might be part of the answer as to why it can be visionary and psychedelic for some people..maybe some people have a greater turnover of melatonin to pinoline?
I mean..I just dont get it. Why the line between being a viable psychoactive for some and not for others is so drawn out like this..
It is also not consistant the way DMT or psilocybin is. I cant predict that this will happen..but when it does happen it is consistant in what it does. It is not random and different every time. It is very specific in it's action..Usually though(75% of the time) if I have at least 1mg it happens.
Also, I was in bed last night after taking it, for 12 hours. Still, I woke up feeling tired and groggy as if I had been up late tripping all night. I get this every time(unless I have 500 mics or less) but it clears up within a few hours..and there is this weird fuzzy feeling in my pineal area and also a feeling of energy in my body that is almost identical to harmine.
I took it once at like 300 mics with a tiny bit of harmalas sublingual and meditated for a bit before I fell asleap..I dont remember much of that night really though. I have been wanting to experiment with melatonin and other tryptamines in combination but I have not gotten to that yet due to the really weird effects I already got on it's own.
This stuff is not like acid though..so dont read this post and think your just gunna drop a pill of melatonin at a party and go trip. It's not like that. It definatly has that tryptamine quality but it's completely different at the same time, and probly requires other factors like individual biochemisty etc for it to work this way.
I know some people here take up to like 75mg of the stuff for it's psychoactive effects. To be honest I am freaking paranoid of dosing it like that now. For me it is a powerful reality altering tryptamine, but it's effects are unique and probly not very well understood... and I just cant get my head around people taking 10mg etc of the stuff and saying nothing happened!
Long live the unwoke.