Hi all!

I’m excited to become a part of this community. I’ve been into magic mushrooms for about eight years, and I’ve tried DMT a handful of times (haven’t broken through yet). I joined the Nexus at the beginning of this year for personal research. However, after a couple of failed breakthrough attempts, I sat down the spice and haven’t picked it back up in over three months. I keep waiting for it to feel “right” to take it again, and I believe that time is approaching.

As far as I can tell, I’ve only gotten to the “chrysanthemum” (a la McKenna) and had a couple of different experiences akin to moments from the peak of a ~4g shroom trip. They were obviously hard or impossible to quantify, but astonishing and wonderful. I briefly got the sense that I was finally fully cognizant again after a cycle of limited experience/existence, and that this cycle will repeat in perpetuity. It’s simultaneously exhilarating and slightly terrifying, but I accepted it (which seems always for the best). Then the trips petered out and I couldn’t remember much of anything .

So I haven’t tripped in a while, and I thought it was because I was afraid of what I’ll experience. But that doesn’t make sense, because all my DMT experiences have been positive, even during brief moments that I realized might be interpretable as scary. I now think that what I have been (and currently am) truly afraid of is chickening out at the moment of truth, when my ears are already ringing and time is slowing toward a halt, and I know that all that separates me from the unfathomable mind-warping expanse of hyperspace is one more premium toke. I’m debating whether to go it alone again or get a sitter to aid me, but I really think I would prefer solitude if possible.

FYI, I have been using a home-made machine (is there any other kind?) for administration. I had a single burned copper mesh ball in the neck of a glass bottle to hold the molten freebase. Last time, I got the notion to push that ball back deeper, sprinkle on a dry 50mg dose, and then closed it in with another burned copper mesh ball to help prevent direct flame contact. I think it would’ve worked, had I not bailed on taking a second hit (the first one was huge, but apparently not huge enough). So sometime soon, I’ll try again.

Anyway, if you’ve read this far, thanks! I hope to have some conversations and share my future trip reports on here. Cheers!

I know what you mean when you talk about the cycles and full awareness however I believe the reason for the cycles and not just perpetual full awareness is exactly because of the means by which you obtained the awareness (psychedelics). Anyways welcome to the nexus and enjoy your stay .

Hello,

As far as I know, copper is a really bad idea to smoke out of.

This is pricey, but almost foolproof:

https://vaporgenie.com/g...s-sherlock-vg-vaporizer
https://vaporgenie.com/c...-pad-liquids-oils-waxes

Plus a good torch lighter; you should have no problems breaking through.

Good luck!

Is it still bad for you even if you burn it black till it doesn’t smoke anymore? I’m open to other methods of administration, and I’m particularly interested in trying an E-cig solution.

Are you suggesting that entheogen-level enlightenment is accessible “at will” and in unlimited supply via, say, meditation? Even if so, that seems like a lofty or even impossible goal.

Hi there, welcome!





As for the bolded part, you get what you put into it.. It takes work and being able to nuance the techniques to better suit you takes time. Practice doesn't necessarily make perfect but it sure does teach and bring about opportunity for growth -If you want to be taught, that is.

Build a regiment and maintain it, first & foremost, as you will only get out of it what you truly put in...

this may also in ways apply/help with your expectations (or intent) prior to/during your journeys.
(I think it applies in most facets of life tbf)

Safe travels friend, be safe out, up or in there!