Hello, dear reader.
This is gonna be an intro-essay, of mine. Of mine. Basically...
Everything started last summer while I got free from the prison, where I had this intense vision of letters 'DMT' in it. Free man as I was, I got down to it. In one night the kitchen turned into a lab. Shitty rollercoaster cause it never ends duh...
So here I go sitting next to a wall tapestry, and there in my hand is the meth-pipe-made-to-be-not-look-like-a-meth-pipe. Maybe bad english?
Though I learned that "DMT is a living thing. mkay", I also learned that the less I use the lighter the more I get the smoke. This wasnt the breakthrough that the everybody is talking about. This was supposed to be a test run, before I get into an action.
This is not an interrogation.
Im dealing with demons here.
So for the ultimate breakthrough I have to prepare, to be prepared HA! It is of consideration and long relationship with LSD, that I decided to have it within me, with me during the ATTEMPTED breakthrough.
Days earlier, did I have discovered this space you get in your head when drinking certain tea. It is felt to be like drunken state, but at the same time it is the headspace of my own, in all solitude. Is there any seed in this? This gets better all the time. Cause the rue is the SEED, the SEED man, SEED.
Following is a trip report, in much more literal sense than you would normally think. Normal thinking? Copyrights for the game, or the patent for using it? GO GO GO
p1:
As a passionate LSD user, I had developed such a bond, that includes a full trust, of the LSD experience, or of whats going on to rephrase it. So while Im going to do the DMT breakthrough, obviously it has to be on acid. And I havent done acid in a full year now. I decided the dosage to be a full milligram. Thats how much I trust it. There I have 3.7g worth of rue tea also. Packed in my backbag within a bottle. Plus, plus... DMT, fresh from the baking dish, even more fresh from the fridge, and now on it sits within some paper fold, in this damn backpack next to the machine and that bottle mentioned, earlier.
All that stuff... All that stuff went to a bike ride in the middle of summernight, which are, by the way, full of sunlight!
I was heading to the country side from the edge of the city. There is an old abandoned road where once the people used to get to the city. On the old bus stop I take my break and drop the L. Boomlicious.. ... .. . I drive my bike, and before I left the home, I checked from the maps that there is a road to the lake from this road across this thick bushy area filled with foliage. It was a certain and decided too, that Im going to go through it, as the 2 roads didnt connect, at all.
Some jungle madness later I was on a narrow path where the bike was burden to walk along. I was basically lost there, I went an intuition as my compass. I thought that if I leave my bike here, and walk the same tracks back, Im gonna get back to it.
Afterall I made it to the lake and to the beach with the fire places. Tea tasted foul, but I did not question the intention of this. There I aknowledged that there is a guy sleeping in a hammock. And other one in the tent. I thought if I was just quiet and stuff, I would snuggly fit in and not wake them up, or cause any attention. Cause, this is just quiet tripping here besides fire?
p2:
Sitting by a roaring, peaking, campfire, I load the machine with a literal mountain of DMT. Such a mountain that it had the iron scrubber completely covered. I was collecting my breath and not thinking about anything in particular. Pipe was hit with full force and my lungs were filled to the max. Within a split second I was gone. I awoke from eternal death...
Giggling is what I heard. Blackness shifts faintly, and I find myself sitting by a campfire with a girl, an elf-girl. She came from the other direction to this campfire, as I came from the other. We were so same looking, maybe same age too. And her smile is something of an unfolded mystery.
We were looking for each other for our whole lives it appears by the conversation we had. It was our simultaneous dream to get here.
This is the first sign where I realize that Iam tripping. And all this happened within a blink of an eye. Next thing was the realization that all of my dreams have come true. I thought: "YES!", and continue the trip. There was the elf-girl with me, who was loving me. There I channeled my energy towards her, and like the game where you put your hand on top of the opponents hand faster and faster, like "flip-flap", the momentum got higher and higher until energy bursted, forming a star into the vast blackness.
I literally completed a "human" being. I realized that I had stood up from the bench, and Iam dancing. Next thing to be known is that I realize that this is the craziest thing that was ever happened. My hands are in my mouth, in my hair and in my nose, just like they first time ever found that they have company, of nose, eyes, and hair. It was also to be mentioned of that, that no damage was done during that dance. The fluidity was so, fluid. And that was miraculous. That Im not doing this myself. I was just reborn to be honest. My mouth was making sound, similar to this: EACQUIVWBOEDNPAMSÅGMNWEBGKIPNPSDVÅKWOEIBPDNCMÅDL NPBIÅNWVDWJEBOBJWKOGOPKLÅPDSLMKIHOWENIKOIRNBIEBEEWIW, ..extremely fast! And this all reminded me of those indian figures of Shiva or somebody else, that were dancing. I lacked the guts of screaming in top of my lungs, mostly of the hammock&tent guy mentioned earlier. The elf-girl had turned, and by the way, it was all photorealistic, into a rainbow coloredpattern, that was dancing. She really had become my best friend.
Word Ayahuasca rose to my mind, and it was the most beautiful word that ever has been.
There I went to stand on the rock next to water line, and let every bird available to KNOW. To my great suprise the birds and the beasts of the wild answered, and for a while I was listening to a concert.
Together
p3:
Gotta find my bike... The same tracks, the same tracks, ...yeah.
I got this I think, it is all possible to go home and follow the girl to the unknown, or kinda, do I already know? I got to see her.
Plan is to drive back home and do this at home where its more privacy. Its 6 in the morning, and Im the madman here, but who cares? Since I have better business to do, NONE.
Back home, time for another tea, figure that about 4.5g will do. Dont fall asleep, dont be unconcious, sssspplhhltss... And thats the sound of rue tea reduced to nada de nada.
Another boil another 4.7g goes there. I dont remember the exact number, twas 4.5g-4.9g, cause solid 5g, that would be something dangerous, it was assumed. Assume this will be an another shot with the elf-girl. Drunk from the tea and Swiss moutain compared to Nepalese mountain done before next to me. Intention? To get there.
Hit it and within a few seconds, I fell to a dream state. Energy, out of energy.. ..! Waiting room with a guy whos rolling hes eyes and is laughing a nervous laugh. What am I doing here?? Come on.
3,2,1 DOOM!
Jack-o-boxes, clowns, jesters, eerie people of the eerie land. Absolute insanity! And it goes forever and ever, it will never end. I open my eyes, and I realize that Im lying on my bed, and Im feeling sick. Helpless like a baby I close my eyes again to meet the same carnage as before. Civilization was on its glory, only to be collapsed to the sand. And look! Another civilization arises, only to collapse in dust. This will last forever and forever. There really is not stop coming to this.
Dreaming while awake? Or awake while dreaming?
The end of the story telling, thee end.
Clap clap clap! (thats my imaginary friend clapping to this, as he likes good ol' stories)
Rue is a hard-core teacher, from what I know, it has very little mercy, or forgiveness. But is up to us, what kind of teacher we choose. May your feet be free from the traps of an ignorance. And still, those traps are to teach you, to bring you into maturity.
Im dealing with demons here, and this town has a boiling parasite problem.
I have seen a demon to invade a man, I commanded it to leave, though it only went for a walk around the block.
Its apetite consisted of my attention, and the man was out of hes mind.
The bad thing is that it assimilates itself into, a "new possible" hosts. So in this sense I say that I saw this man's reincarnation today.
This parasite is known to be against all the psychedelics, and I suppose it only includes classical ones, as they straightforward compromise the existence of the parasite.
So all in all, people are living out of their minds spreading literal disease to the humankind.
The preying tactics, include man and woman relationship, where immature men in their blindness asks their women, if they did right or wrong. And the women as sick they are, sharing the disease, is blinded to follow their thirst, for world dominance. So together this young boy destroys the world around him, while hes lady gives him green light.
Have I ever been accused of raping? Or even a Grand one on the children? Altogether this immature woman learns that she can do pretty much anything, obtain pretty much anything, through the aid of their own men.
She thinks she controls everything by her lips. But one day she learns that she couldnt move it all.
Everything has been said that ever could have been.
By the way, or nothing, it is just as it is. It is like this.