Hello All.
I've been lurking on the Nexus for a few years, and just recently decided to become a member. I've extracted my own dmt several times and I consider myself fairly experienced when it comes to psychedelics.
I grew up in the Pacific northwest inside of a pretty lively rave scene. It is here that I had many of my first true "wowza" experiences, and where I first fell in love with psychedelics. I've come a long way since those days. I'm now married with two children, and another due in about a week. I still hold an intense interest and respect for psychedelics, though. I just have to be more responsible about my use. Which definitely isn't a bad thing.
I spent years addicted to heroin and meth. I was homeless at one point, living in a shack in the woods, too caught up in my addiction to care about the fact that, despite all the support in the world, I was missing out on a relationship with my first born daughter. I found every excuse in the world and blamed everyone around me for my lack of a relationship with her.
At some point, I moved back to my birth city of Louisville. It is around this time that things got really strange for me. After a few sessions with LSD and DMT, and a true introduction to the Dead, my whole life changed. Years later, I realize that I was going through a process of intense transformation. The hell of it was that it felt completely involuntary. I am more grateful now than I can even explain, but at the time, I definitely wasn't feeling it. Long story short, I got off of all the drugs, save for nicotine, alcohol, and psychoactives. The way I used psychoactives, however, completely changed. I began focusing more on "fixing" the parts of myself that I was less than impressed with, and learning how to be truly happy. I rekindled my relationship with my oldest daughter and had a new daughter as well, both of which I am positively head over heels for.
I currently view both dmt and other psychedelics as sort of "old friends". That is not to say that I am in any way above them, or that I've learned all that is to be learned. I simply mean to say that I've gotten much better at integrating my experiences in the psychedelic realm into my waking life, and I am living a much better life for it. I use psychedelics now as more of a meditation tool than anything, and I'm actually at a point where I prefer smaller doses. For the first time in my entire life I can say that I am proud of the person I am. I've learned how to let go, and how to love more deeply, and it feels pretty great.
Anyway. I'm really looking forward to exploring this site. Like I said, I've spent years in the sections on extraction teks etc. It is only recently that I've begun to look elsewhere on the site. So far, I can tell this is a truly wholesome place, and I can only hope to be a positive contribution to it.
Stay Funky