I’ve extracted and washed all of my dmt successfully and still have some pulls sitting in the freezer for harvest, only problem is I haven’t been able to bring myself to smoke it, it looks fluffy and beautiful as snow so I know it’s gonna be a good smoke. Only problem is the nerves, I know im ready for the experience again but it’s been years and I just need a little guidance from the nexus on how to find my balance

I know that feeling.

I can only tell you what works for me in these cases.

So, the way i see it, is that there is some doubt as to whether you realy want to do it. You have reasons why you would want to, but also reasons why you wouldn't, like fear for instance.

So contemplate this matter for a while. Not pushing yourself in any way. "do i realy want this" ?

If so, then you need to set a date and a time. When the moment is there, you simply go. Even if there is fear and doubt at that moment. Because you can say to yourself that you have realy thought it through and that you realy want to do it.

That is all you need to take that leap. Knowing "i want this".

I couldn’t have asked for no better answer. Thank you brother

I am always a bit nervous before i vape, i suppose it is my ego telling me not to do IT. The ego must accept to loose control.

Den I like to start with a small amount, aroynd 25 mg, and work my way up. I prefer to do 3-4 sessions to work with myself every 3-4 weeks, or when it feels right.

Commit, focus on the minutiae of the routine and concentrate all your thought on being the best delivery system you can be. I try to go in determined but blank. If I administer the dose as efficiently and calmly as intended I already consider the trip a success.

You are correct brother. It is your ego/shadow making you feel not to do it, it knows when you do that you see the truth and it can't do a thing about it once you do. It does not want you to see what our potential is and the reason it makes us feel like not taking it, even though we know it is so special and important to our true healing. It is a battle we have our entire life, it is up to us to choose if we win or if we loose brother.

It's a battle with your ego/shadow brother, it does not want you to see what is waiting for you. Deep down you know it is the most amazing experience you have ever felt so why would that make us feel scary, correct? It is a journey for your trueself and not your ego hence the fear or doubt it is putting in you and making you feel nervous to take it.

Nervous is a trait of our weak self, our ego/shadow, don't let him win brother and just let him go, when you do, he has no more control.

on a different note,Myself was going to do my first extractions. What tek did you use and what solvent brother.