Dear all,

I just read that as a new member I should post here, rather than in the discussions category. This is a repost.


I don't know if I am writing in the correct category, but I really just want to talk, and don't know anyone personally who I can share my experience with. I apologize in advance for any lack of etiquette or having posted in the wrong place.

I have a lot of mental issues (paranoia, hypochondria, severe social anxiety, culminating in what some might call depression) much of which I believe is self induced (I consider myself a very smart person who overthinks himself into a vicious circle all the time). I took part in an ayahuasca ceremony 2 years ago. The day after, I cried 8 hours straight, and it really took me a few months to reconnect with reality. I was so lost, but I believe now that this is because I have severe trust issues and despite tripping lots, I have almost exclusively bad trips because I am still too young and childish to really let go and trust where the plant is taking me. So, despite this experience, the promise that DMT showed me has led me back to trying it again, in hope that my problem was that I simply refused to trust the plant, and not that I am predisposed to schizophrenia or a genuine psychosis.


I recently procured some spice. After experimenting quite a bit a decided to use an oil pipe (meth pipe). My first breakthrough I had at the peak of an LSD trip with one big hit. I had an extremely overwhelming and beautiful trip where I really died and was reborn, prompting me, despite being hugely overwhelmed, to do it a second time. Again, amazing.

QUESTION 1. Last night I tried smoking it sober (three hit method). After my first hit, all the DMT (powder, yellow), had turned into a liquid. I tried relighting (over a candle) for the second hit, and I inhaled a hit that was clearly burnt. My question is, how to you get the three hits? should I add fresh DMT to the pipe between hits for best results? Or can the liquid at the bottom be smoked under low heat?

QUESTION 2. My trip. My trip was quite psychotic in nature. I first felt quickly blasted upward to an entity (old, ancient, wide face) but then quickly plummeted downwards, not being allowed into his dimension. My visions were of terrifying, three dimensional demons performing surgery on each other. I was emotionally very detached from the trip, just witnessing this nightmarish imagery. I also saw the archetypal Tree of Knowledge that is often seen in Ayahuasca trips, and its roots were being cut off (Anyone well versed in Jung or Mythology might have something very interesting to say to this). It was phantasmagorical and not completely immersive and reality shattering like my previous experience.

In people's experience, has anyone had bizarre trips like these, perhaps linked to poor smoking technique? Are such strange trips natural and part of one's time spent with DMT, or is this a sign that maybe I should not be smoking it? I really want to take full responsibility for my psychology and not consider myself a victim of and an actual disease, but I need to be careful. Am I being paranoid?

Thanks so much for reading, apologies to the administrators who have to move this post elsewhere.