After having some trouble breaking through, I finally ended up on the other side. However, I soon forgot this, and went back again an hour later. The results were very unexpected.
For some reason, taking the water out of my bong seemed to be the deciding factor of me breaking through. Multiple previous attempts with good smoking technique but with water in the bong landed me in the waiting room. I enjoyed these sub-breakthroughs but sought more. So, I loaded up 60 mg on top of two screens, with a thin layer of mullein on top. This always results in very smooth smoke, so I had no trouble taking it in without water.
I held in the third hit for about twenty seconds, and was then instantly blasted into a new "place." From here, I remember absolutely nothing. All I remember is seeing some, as I described "delicate and beautiful machinery" on the come down. I came-to in my room, observing the various objects, and confused with
everything. After a while I became coherent, and was shocked at what I just saw. There was no doubt in my mind that I had traveled to the other side. But after 15 minutes of reintegrating back into the human body, for some reason, I became very doubtful. I looked back on the memory and for whatever reason convinced myself it was just another sub-breakthrough. I figured I'd remember the ego death at least, which would confirm I had a break-through. But, I had no memory of one whatsoever. Also, I looked in the bowl and saw plenty of substance left (around 20mg left out of 60mg).
So, I figured I'd wait an hour, sprinkle some more DMT on top of the mullein/DMT mix left in the bowl, and have another go at it, to confirm that I'd been there. What I'd soon see would definitely confirm this
After holding in the third hit, I once again was catapulted into a new "place". When I got "there", I distinctly remember communication with various entities, in a high-frequency vibration language. They seemed to be teasing me, and ridiculing me for coming back again so soon. It went sorta like "You're back here??? Already??? You've gotta be kidding me!!!" After this, they confirmed that I had already been on the other side, while also showing me "the message" again. Apparently I was told "the message" the first time, but forgot all memory of it! I remember thinking on the come down that if I could bring this message back, I'd be able to "run on the ceiling!" Unfortunately, but expected, I was not able to bring the message back. I just remember how extremely cheerful and festive all the entities were when telling me it! I know it was an amazing experience despite remembering so little of it.
After coming back down, I had tears in my eyes. I didn't feel sad or emotional, but could feel a stream pouring from my eyes. I believe this was due to the extremely intense passion of the entities, yet it's still crazy to me. But, once again, I remember no ego death or intensity, just the communication with the other. It feels like an extremely distant memory, and one that I can't confirm even happened.
The next night I smoked some weed (I knowingly experience LSD-like effects from weed, HPPD) and remember feeling the high was more intense than DMT! Really just goes to show how effective DMT memory loss is, and how quickly the ego is able to retain itself. The LSD-like weed experience felt more intense due to the slow dissolution of my ego, compared to the lightning fast and practically forgotten DMT death.
Overall, I'm extremely grateful for the experience and find it so very bizarre
Thanks for reading fellow Nexians! What are your thoughts?