Jupitor wrote:Can you please clarify- do you need the medication or don't you? You said that you "kind of need it", but then you also said that you have been in remission for years, and that psychedelic drugs have given you more healing than any antipsychotic ever could... Maybe more details about what your psychosis was?
Well, I am afraid of going off of it for fear of a relapse. But my psychotic symptoms have been gone for many years, and I have come to the conclusion that I will wean off of it with a doctor because I no longer need to be on these meds. I also am in a much better and much more stable point in my life. I believe my psychosis manifested from environmental trauma. My psychosis started in freshman year of high school, and it was characterized by an obsession with the occult and spirituality, which led to me feeling like I could see and hear spirits and communicate with them, which led to some destructive behaviors. I feel though that I should approach my psychosis and subsequent healing from a psychospiritual model rather than a biomedical model.
EDIT: Also, over the years, my "psychosis" and hallucinations have shifted from very negative (seeing demons, et cetera), to incorporating my own healthy Christian spirituality and serving me in a positive way, i.e. improving my life. For example, I believe I can talk to angels and I believe full-heartedly that an apparition of the Virgin Mary came to me twice to give me guidance. These things are beneficial to my life and do not negatively impact me. Any good psychiatrist will not classify this as disease because of the cultural socio-religious context and the fact that to be a disease it has to negatively impact your life.