The last time experiencing DMT was also my first time experiencing DMT. This was about 4 years ago. I described one part of my trip, about how I went inside a grandfather clock with a glowing crystal powering the clock and 2 machine elves operating the clock and they both looked at me and then continued to their task as if this was "normal" but not expected at this very moment...That Is the kind of the vibe that they gave off. That was some cool shit and all, but the most profound part of my trip took me to a childhood experience in Ely, NV where I first looked at a pornographic magazine (age 6 or 7). I remember I was with my brother and his friend and we where all hiking in the mountains and we came across some sagebrush that had a stash of playboys. So of course we all grabbed one and then all of a sudden out of nowhere a big guy with blond hair picked me up from behind under my armpits so my legs where off the ground. My brother and his friend ran down the hill and all the guy kept on saying to me in a calm voice... "If you drop it, I will drop you." I was so scared so I just held on until my brothers voice broke through to my mind and he said "just drop it!" so I finally dropped the magazine and the guy put me down and I ran as fast as I could down to my brother and his friend. End story. That's the very moment that was played out to me during my trip and to me that was a symbol of a habit that I have not yet figured out how to drop all the way yet, but It's getting me on the path of seeing how toxic any act can be when done in a habitual manner. Has anyone else been helped with altering undesired habits by using DMT?

I do not understand the point you are making. What I extract from your story is that the experience took place in real life and later occurred unaltered in your trip.

What do you mean with a symbol of a habit? What was or is the toxic act?

Yes, on a solid measure of mushroom, I had a sudden terrifying realization that “I am the dark one” in reference to these song lyrics:

“Thousand years of black emptiness. No joy, no rage, no desire, no emotion. Feelings, dark desire. Raw lust. He was the one his own kind spoke of in whispers, with awe, with fear, with dread. The dark one.”

That the path I was on was was leading nowhere good...isolating myself from people and my own emotions, and i knew exactly what had to change in my behaviors thanks to this introspective moment.

Dead Moist Turtles are helping me drop old patterns of thinking and subconscious beliefs about myself/world. I can make my day worse just by resisting what is and having thoughts like “I shouldn’t be here” “I wish things were different” “why this why that” “I hate winter” etc. Accepting what is brings a sense of peace and gratitude for how good I have it today and how much worse it could be.

When I make mistakes around others I feel a guilty/shameful energy wash over me depending on the situation. In these moments it helps to remind myself that I’m human, I can make mistakes today and I’m the only one judging me

Yes. Sex on Earth and sex in outter space is very different because, well because of circuits active. DMT sex is space sex. DMT space on Earth is most likely a bit different that sex in space. DMT and pornography, Pornhub is launching their space program, people like sex, people like drugs / shamanic entheogens . Lots of feminine negative energy around pornography although be aware, however it may become big buck in the nearby future.

Great question with a few words. I like you.

let's see... A symbol of a habit could be replaced with the word "temptation" I think there is power in resisting temptations. Personally I'm drawn heavily to the "symbol" of the female. That is not bad, but when that draw is being pulled by low vibrational source (like a porn sight), it makes me feel like someone grabbing their meat form the market and telling themselves that they are a "hunter." I did not deserve to see those women because I did not work for it myself. Pleasure is not a sin, but being lazy is. So I should have asked. Has anyone received help from DMT by the manifestation of personal resistance to "temptations?"

Front flippy Damn Skippy! That was a beautiful story of triuph and I'm very thankful that you shared that with me and that you did not make me feel alone with that strange question I asked.