Howdy y’all!

I’m familiar with all sorts of entheogens but I just wanted to share a really awkward trip I had with ayahuasca resin, and due to my stupidity and lack of tact I nearly ended up doing something regretful.

A month ago I took about 5g of 30x B. caapi resin (alone) and didn’t feel any effect except I felt very relaxed. This was really disappointing and I decided to take a lot more the next time, which I knew didn’t make sense in terms of normal dosage.

Fast forward to a few days ago - I drank 10g 15x resin with around 150-200 mg dmt - dissolved in some hot water. I took this all at once (most horrid taste in the world) and to make sure I feel the effects I went all in like a donkey.

It was interesting in the beginning, for 30 minutes nothing, a little nausea, then I could see this female spirit taking over - but soon everything turned into hell, the kind of infernal torment I would not wish to any living thing.

I felt the worst nausea I ever felt but the problem was I could not throw up and I tried pretty much everything, even drinking about a litre of water. I was half in hyperspace, half in the living room. This was also a little strange as I would expect this dosage to launch me to the far end of the galaxy for 3-4 hours.

I got to the shower hoping to get a relaxing moment but could not coordinate to set the water temperature straight and finally gave up.

Anyway, to make things worse, preceding this experience, I didn’t take care of food, medicine or sex which I should have avoided, this became extremely crystal clear in those tormenting moments. But at least I didn’t eat that day and now it makes sense to keep low on salt and anything that can make a person feel “gutted”.

I felt freezing and developed a very strong headache which didn’t resolve until the next day.

During the experience, all the world seemed to have dissolved, all the relationships, objects and their names, there was just a lot of light and hyperspatial noise, and above all pain and then some more pain on top.

I felt so agitated that I wanted to die, it was far more than I could take even with all the concentration I could put together, I was not able to withhold and if I had a way of “ending it all” I would have done it straight away. The worst things was that there was no sense of time passing and I felt like I’m completely trapped.

I finally rolled into a blanket like a fetus and just waited it out. Surprisingly, it all took only 2 hours start to finish.

Later, I remembered those stories of people on mushrooms and lsd jumping off the balconies and realised this state of mind was actually happening to me and I don’t consider myself very feeble minded, especially having gone through a lot of psychedelic shite, both good and bad.

I’m very happy to have this behind me now.

If anyone has any wisdom to share in regards to taking resin that would be amazing, I think I’ll be much more careful since this happened.

Thank you.

Wild ride for sure.

You made it through. Glad to hear you didn't make any rash decisions. Perhaps a sitter would have been in order? What would you do different had you to do it over again?

Thanks, great question - if I was back in that state, I'd just drink a lot more water and force myself to throw up. However, I personally don't like sitters (or sitting).

Now, I have a lot of resin so I'm just eating a bit each day in the evening, like 1/3g (equivalent to 5g raw material). I want to feel it out and take note of how it affects me since I obviously had no idea what I was doing. So far it made me feel a little bit amped and kind of mellow and I'm hoping the plant can do some healing over the course of a few weeks.