Hi all
New to DMT still. 2 years in, <15 hits. And new to the Nexus!
One thing i've always been interested in is why I keep going back. The last time was a more intense experience and it made me question why do I want to do that again? (which I do) considering it was so full on.
The experience was not
good as in pleasurable, or euphoric, neither was it
bad or alarming and to call it a
neutral experience is woefully inadequate.
I felt caught, frozen whilst i witnessed the world unfold. Unable to move and with no comprehension of what was going on - I was still holding the pipe, but I had no understanding of what was in my hand, nor even what a hand is. If I explained my experience(s) to somebody outside of the DMT world, they'd say it sounds horrific! Yet, i'm eager for more...
I just wonder what the pull is to go back. To learn? Though i know i'll never be able to comprehend what's going on. Maybe the wonderment of this other 'dimension' appearing from nothingness. Maybe it's because I feel I'm onto to something that so many millions around the world have no idea about - so an ego thing?
Anyway just having a ponder on a Saturday morning. Have a great weekend everyone!
