This was a strange experience to say the least. I'll attempt to describe it quickly I'd like to hear if anyone has had a similar event.
For a few days I had been locked out of hyperspace. Wasn't sure if I'd built a tolerance, or if using white girl would impede travel for a while after, or if my vaporizer was broken. It seemed however much I dmt I inhaled I'd never cross.
So two nights into the lockout I say to myself "I'm going to cross over right now no matter how long it takes." I hit the vape repeatedly make it to the first checkpoint the "Clean Place" where everything is pastel colors.
(Usually seen in my comeups/downs and flashbacks) Determined to hurdle forward I take a few more puffs.
The familiar swirl of the carpet rises and pools above. And then a melting sensation. It feels almost as if head has turn to liquid form and I cant help to form a half grin as I realize a Jester's has been placed on me. It was a box that forever swirled in on itself. I feel especially dumbed mentally which I found absolutely halarious. And have the feeling it's all a joke.
What "all" is I'm not sure. The fact I cant get back in? Life? Or maybe they were just toying with me. Anyway I decided not to go back for a while. Has anyone else become an entity other than their metaphysical self?
"My fate cannot be mastered; it can only be collaborated with and thereby, to some extent, directed. Nor am I the captain of my soul; I am only its noisiest passenger."- Aldous Huxley