Hello Nexus!

I’ve been exploring the sight off and on for a couple years now. Figured it was time to say what’s up. I feel like I’ve come a long way since my first extraction and smoking attempt, which was just a taste at best. But i did realize my mail order was legit and Norman’s tech was performed correctly! I’m up to 4 extractions now. About 1.5 grams per pull.....i think. This last pull I figured I would get 15 solid breakthroughs vaping .05-.08 on a titanium dab nail. This has been by far the most reliable, simple, smooth, guaranteed method for breakthrough for me. Since I’m eye balling, it’s hard to say exactly how much I have. Nothing says commitment like a eye ball drop. I’ve experimented with enough techniques to get comfortable without a scale. It’s definitely been a building up process. I’ve wondered if breaking through the first time smoking has the same impact as it does for me now.

The messages or meaning of each breakthrough is very unique to me. I’ve wondered if the meassage is actually in the visuals. Like a complex language that for a brief moment makes complete sense. I also feel like what I am shown is in me. As in, the meaning of life and the cosmos is pulled out of my DNA explained through complex visuals in a way that makes perfect sense and then for a moment when I come back I can contiplate, only to come down grasping to hold on to just a tiny bit of the experience.

Hopefully this wasn’t to hard to follow. Trying to articulate the experience is a challenge.

Before I go, I do want to thank the nexus and everyone for all the good information.

I can relate to that feeling of getting a message. Feels like it comes so fast, with so much information at once. There is a moment when it just feels like it is all understood. Everything is understood all at once in hyperspace. Then coming back into this reality it is like all that information and all that was understood starts to dwindle away. Very much like a dream that fades after waking. It can feel like squeezing sand and desperately trying to hold onto the bits and pieces that remain when the DMT starts to complete it's course, only to have it all slip away leaving only a very small portion of what you started with.

I feel like there is some langauge in hyperspace. I feel like there is an emotional language and an audible language. I have a DMT journal and jot down thoughts and impressions about my journey's in it sometimes. I wrote a couple times in that journal that I heard a jibberish language that I seemed to be able to understand. Perhaps some form of glossolalia?

It feels like remembering! Remembering the odd jibberish language... remembering that I am more than flesh in bone somehow... remembering everything and understand why the universe is as it is. Then coming back and somehow forgetting. Like choosing to forget. Amnesiac gods or something.

Keep on writing about your experiences. Keep a journal and write in it after a good journey. It can help in integrating these weird experiences and aid in articulating your experience.

Welcome to the nexus!