Hi travellers,
I was a member on here about five or so years ago (sorry, I can't recall my previous user name), and took a three year hiatus from the sacrament, but happy to report back again. Previously worked with MHRB but have successfully made the switch and process refinements to Acacia.
Noting the wise words about breakthroughs "you'll know it when it happens", I'm proud to say that tonight I finally joined the club
My previous 60+ or so experiences have all been wonderful (with one exception - I broke the scared rule of mindset and was severely punished for it, but in a way I needed) but sub-breakthrough. Not by much, mind you, but not ever quite there - experienced ego loss, OBEs, some entities etc, but it was always lacking depth. I tried everything.. vaped FB, vaped changa, vaped enhanced leaf, vaped harmalas and FB separately, combusted changa, classic VG, normal pipe, meditated, different music etc all with very clean spice. Lately I've been using a Volcano Digit, which has taken some experimentation, but I finally got everything figured out. However, there was always one thing I overlooked.. turns out I simply have a naturally high tolerance. It took an efficiently vaped 82mg of FB tonight in four long breaths, but I finally got there!
The come-up was slow, no hyper speed or tunnels, just a slow gather - I could feel it gathering before the CEVs caught up (I attribute this to the four long hits). Then the lotus pattern appeared and slowly morphed itself, after which everything fell away and I was surrounded in a beautiful white void that tapered to yellow below me. The colour was extraordinarily vivid and the scene was expansive - like orbiting close to a massive star with blue/black colours replaced by white/yellow. In front was a pathway into eternity that carried morphing shapes and patterns toward me - a lot like guitar hero. A feminine dancer was on the path ahead and I had the sense that her dancing produced the multi-coloured patterns racing toward me. Impossibly beautiful and serene. Ego was gone (letting go has never been an issue for me), no sense of body and time felt so different in there - I had 'Dorset Perception' by Shpongle playing on some noise-cancelling earphones and I remember that the song seemed to last forever and simply stop for a while at various points. That's about all I remember. The afterglow was much less than my previous sub-breakthroughs, but when I returned I was overwhelmed by positive emotions. Tears streamed down my cheeks (I'm not a crying kinda guy), my heart started racing from the sheer volume of information to process, and I had fits of laughter on my bed. It may have been the relief of finally breaking through after so long. Anyway, it prompted me to rejoin this wonderful space.
Side note - during my many sub-breakthroughs I learned to become more active than passive. I could choose what to look at, swipe away things that didn't interest me, and pull in things that I noticed in my periphery. I could also mentally 'pulse' the visions and make them change. Sometimes I'd experiment and dream up what I wanted to see and voila, it would appear in the CEVs, but not always. I can't recall reading trip reports that describe this - do others experience this too?
Peace to all,
Padawan