Hello nexus, I have been experimenting with hallucinogenic substances for a year now and I must say I have never felt more human. I have tried DXM, anahuasca, DPH, LSA, LSD, MDMA, 4-ho-mipt, mescaline, Bufotenine(vaped and snuffed), N2o, and various combinations of everything listed.
Today I will share the tale of my first anahuasca trip. A tea was produced with a close friend over the course of 2 weeks we started by brewing a quarter lb of powdered yellow caapi with a half lb of powdered mhrb. When this did not work a pound of ground peganum harmala was added.
After the brew was completed my friend, myself, and a mutual friend smoked an 8th out of a gravity bong and I filled a red solo cup full with the sickly orange fluid to later be consumed at my parents house. Once I arrived home 20 minutes later I drank 2/3 of the fluid chased with orange juice and drew a warm bath for myself. In no time at all the wooden door began to flicker and rush downward the effect was reminiscent of a waterfall. The speckled tile covering the walls of the room began to dance with an inconceivable fractal ferocity. As everything began to leap off the walls I concluded it was time to isolate myself in my room.
I was laying in bed watching mandalas spread across my textured walls each one with a unique story that drew my attention to their nebulous centers. I looked up the wall directly beside me and saw alien figures dancing in my wall. It was incredibly Aztec in nature, I rolled over face down in my bed laughing and I heard a ringing which I referred to as "insanity bells" at the time. It sounded metallic and occurred at such a high frequency I felt as though it was exploding out of my orifices. I rolled over and the room was gone I was sitting in a hole in the middle of a vast completely flat dessert watching myself from the right side of my body. I aged incredibly quickly then my skin rotted off my bones and my skeleton sunk into the earth. The hole filled with compost fashioned from my flesh and alien organisms evolved from it. Plants came first, then animals, then the animals organized themselves into societies and cities grew into the sky. I was in everything I was the energy fueling their fires and hearts. They never crossed the perimeter of the hole and the dessert remained uniform. I do not remember how I came back to earth since it was all blinding white light after that.
After returning the mandalas depth and intricacy had increased dramatically so I decided to turn the lights off to increase the intensity. At which point the air became dense with fractal patterns of color I cant describe and incredible flowers and fauna burst through holes that were not holes in the fractals and grew to my ceiling. I was in the center of a primeval world the dinosaurs of aliens foraging killing and seducing each other all around me. I focused on my breathing and it began to echo to a point where I believed I was hearing the cumulative breathing of every individual on earth. Once I drew that conclusion it stopped, I heard a single shaky delicate feminine breath which opened into siren songs. I was being serenaded by soft beautiful tones hummed by a matronly character, (I attribute this to the caapi looking out for me, "mother ayahuasca"
every few seconds I would hear a nebulous sound much like what you hear when being submerged in water after a cannonball. At this point I realize hitting the walls sounds and feels cool(my ego is equivalent to a rabbits at this point). So I sit in bed with my back to the wall and begin throwing my arms out and hitting the wall with my knuckles.
After waking the household my step mother knocks on my door and asks if I am ok to which I respond "I'm very sick" and she leaves. I lunge over the corner of my bed and a tiny amount of puke dribbles out of my mouth (to be discovered 3 days later). I continue to roll around on the ground accidentally kicking the walls and walking into them. After the third visit she concludes I'm overdosing because my eyes wont focus and all I can say is "I'm very sick" or "I love you". Up until this point my experience was pure euphoria. She begins to search my luggage for drugs (which they are full of) but miraculously she finds nothing. This makes me anxious but I maintain an optimistic mindset throughout. For the entirety of this experience I was completely naked and refused to put clothes on. I was too distracted for the last half of my trip to give a reasonable account. I do recall sitting legs crossed beside her enjoying the CEVs. I was sitting legs crossed around a fire with 2 native american fellows composed entirely of fractal pattern. we were in a cave with no entrance or exit that was the shape of an egg and the walls were composed of 1 inch fractal windows to other dimensions (like tiles). They just handed me a pipe and we spoke without sound. She left I crawled into bed the trip subsided and I had total clarity she had never entered the room and it was just part of the experience. This was not the case.
I did not expect the brew to work especially not this effectively which was why I consumed a large eyeballed amount. I had 1 gal of tea and I consumed around 12oz which would've been 42g of rue, 21g of mimosa, and 10.5g of caapi. needless to say I wasn't prepared and will never be. This was to date the only psychedelic experience I did not thrive during which is why I was arrogant enough to take it in someone else's home. Thank you to those who read this to the end, your the reason I set my cautious nature aside wrote this.