Hello Everyone
I'll start with a thank you for having a place to share thoughts and ideas, a place where expansion isn't only limited to expanding my accumulation of crap or money.
I'm a relative newbie when it comes to my traveler experiences. The first enthogen I tried was LSD and was back in high school. I did LSD and mushrooms many times and around my early 20's got caught up in "life" and didn't touch anything for a great while. Never been a fan of alcohol, weed doesn't seem to have any effect, so pretty much nothing since my early 20's. About a 2 years ago I got my hands on some LSD for helping someone close to me try microdosing to help with some issues. About a year ago I had made some new friends and got invited to take part at Country Fair. I brought a little bit of that paper with me so I could partake in nature in a safe place with where there would be little judgement. It was fantastic, it was my first time dosing in the outdoors. Not only that the Country Fair is a place built for dosing in public, there were so many amazing sights, sounds, and people, it was amazing. A few days later one of our friends got ahold of some MDMA, so as a group we decided to candy flip while at fair.
I can't even begin to do it justice. For the first 3 hours, we (the group), were very social, wandering around having some great conversations, watching performers and having a great time. We decided to call it a night and return to our respective tents and have some alone time. I went back to my tent, mummified myself in my restrictive sleeping bag and proceeded put on some headphones and relax.
The music was fuel for my brain. I've always loved music as it's always been a part of my life, but this was different. I was insatiable, consuming music as it drove the complicated, quagmire of thoughts and ideas rushing through my brain. It was as if the music allowed for deeper thought and a better understanding of myself and those I love. I spent the next 5 hours listening music and just being. At sun up I gave my SO a call and had one of the most enlightening discussions we've had in a very long time, I won't say anything like it saved my relationship, but I will say it changed it, in a good way. Since then I've had a handful more experiences, all beneficial thus far.
I've spent the majority of my life being a "professional". I'm good at what I do and I have some great friends, by all accounts I'm successful. The part I've missed out on for the last 20 years is better understanding myself. It's amazing how easy it is to get caught up in being "professional" and thinking we've got the whole world figured out and put into a nice little neat box. Then something, some experience, maybe some chemical shines the light on everything else, the whole world outside the neat little box. A whole world yours for the exploration.
That takes me to today. I'm a nerd, I research, I stumbled on to the spice by reading. I don't have any friends who've done it (though a few want to) and have never seen it in any of the circles I run in. I came upon the nexus about 2 months ago and decided I was going to get my hands on some spice. After lots more reading I decided I was going to go ahead and extract some myself.
I have a work week ahead of me, but next weekend I intend to do a bit more exploring, to see what I can find, and see where this rabbit hole goes.
Thanks for taking the time to read my long intro post, I'll leave you with a beautiful quote that I love.
Quote:“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.”
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden