Sounds like we are on the same level then
I just got back as well..first time with the spice in a month. Very clear and very warm. I sort of fell into the mandala with eyes closed, but didint break through it.
After a few minutes I got up and walked around, and looked out the open window at the rain falling and hitting the glass and streaming down and it felt really special..in that special tryptamine way.
Long live the unwoke.