Hello everyone. This is my first post. I'm from south america, 25 Years Old. It's been almost 10 years that I am aware of DMT existance but never tried, I saw videos and read some articles online about it and ever since it caught my attention.
I don't even know where to start, why i am even here writing all this at this very moment.
I remember memories, moments, talks with my family when I was 2 years old, how is this even possible? It is so crystal clear, everything that I experience it is impressed as a "movie-like" clip on my conciousness that I can access and re experience. I've always had this curiosity of this existence. I remember having 7 years old and thinking and observing my present moment, thinking on our "creator", and trying to figure out, i reached a point where there was like nothing, i experienced a feeling, I don't know how to describe it, as if your mind gets out to nothingness and then you're back after 2 seconds, being completely conscious.
I've always been interested in energy, dreams, and drawn into some kind of "gregorian chant" type of music.
Anyways, It all started when one of my family members had a stroke when i was 7 years old, after that my life started a ride of crazy Synchronicity events, experienced by the person that had the accident and myself, not the other family members, me being the youngest of 3 brothers. In those very same years we've started sensing a presence at our home, we saw it some times and even sense it, its like a 'shadow", or i would refer it as a figure that moves very fast out of sight. I remember being very afraid as a Child, but we've learned not to give it attention and it would fade away from years to years, being now completely gone i think.
All this happened from 7 years old till like some months ago (18 years). It used to attack me many times on my dreams, hurting me in so many ways, not letting me escape, stabbing, horrible experiences. This presence did follow me everywhere, not only at my home, but some other places i would go to sleep, i could see the figure but not directly look at it, as if i didnt want to be looked upon.
Thing is, When i was 16 I layed down on my sofa to take a little nap, and somehow i woke up paralized in complete terror, i couldn't move, only breath and move my eyes, i tried so hard to get out and eventually broke free from that state screaming help! (I thought i was suffering a stroke like my family member). That event led to me research day and night and ignite my curiosity on these things, it turned out to be sleep paralysis.
After this incident a year later I meditated to "solfeggio frequencies" to see if energy was even real and trying to confirm and have a grasp of this "other world" and what many religions talked about. I was sitting on a wooden chair with my cheap headphones listening to the tones, and after like 10 mins, i started sensing a high vibration all over my body, and seeing colors on my closed eyes! I saw a bit of blue, and then a yellow/golden pattern moving in circles, and then with this vibration a feeling of strong joy in my chest, i was so emotional about this, tears started comming out.. I KNEW THIS WAS REAL! But for some reason i didnt try again for the next years, i was sort of afraid to try again, i wouldn't know if i would be attacked by this presence that i was living with.
1 year passed.. Now I was 17 years old. I've continued to research and read even more about energy, chakras, etc, and found information about DMT, wich got me even more interested on this "truth seeking path".
2 years later, I think it was 2011. One night i had a dream, and while i was in that dream i've gained awareness about being dreaming, then I remember i was in a green field, it was a sunny day, and in the distance, a big Yellow/Gold radiating ball of light, as I walked closer to it, the light was blinding, but i started to notice that ball of light was a person! and it was levitating! As i got closer walking towards it, i saw a person, white skin, blonde/white hair, white robes, with some kind of metals floating around his head, not directly looking at me, but he was facing me, just right next to me, half meter away. He started talking, giving advice, in such an intelligent way, he started talking about LAWS "It is PRIMARY LAW, looking with the heart, and seeing the world with the heart, and then It is Secondary Law... also talked about universe and energy... and i just don't remember what he kept on saying, but i recall this, IT WASNT MY WORDS FOR SURE, it was so intelligent, such and advanced knowledge, i think it was even talking but like telepathy?. Well I woke up crying cause it was such a crazy ride. Nothing in my life was making sense, who would i talk about this? They would think im crazy.
Few months prior to this "dream" i started waking up suddenly from sleep hearing a "high pitch vibrating ring on my right ear" wich made me think i was having a stroke, but i would get stuck in sleep paralysis again, this had happened many times during those years and still ocurring but without the high pitch sound thingy.
I think during the year that i had the crazy dream with that light being, or the next year, There was this night that changed it all.. I was not even thinking about these things during this time, i was studying, busy with life. So i went to sleep.. and you know the sound when in complete silence? that high pitch sound, well.. for some reason i could concentrate on it and the pitch would be higher, and higher, so i got scared and stopped. A few nights passed as i was experiencing this strange thing, so i tried the hardest i could to raise it up, but this time as i was concentrating on the high pitch, i was also increasing it with my chest, not only my forehead, there was a feeling on my chest, and suddenly a higher pitch, and a LOUD BUZZ on both ears, and the few colors that i was watching with my eyes closed TRANSFORMED into complete WHITE BRIGHT LIGHT, like facing the sun with eyes closed, and I was transported somewhere else! I dont know where i was but i was somewhere else and i could do everything i wanted! I made it night, day, even created and kissed a girl i used to like (lol) Strange thing is i opened my eyes and i was at my room and then I closed my eyes and went back there again! The emotion was so intense that the state only lasted for about a few seconds. I tried after some minutes again to concentrate on the pitch, but failed again and again to go back there! day after day! This is an ability we all HAVE!!
One day i had a dream, where i faced this presence, this shadow that has haunted me for many years, but this time i could look it STRAIGHT on the eyes, he had black hair, grey face, normal person, but.. oh my god, the terror and the pressure upon my chest was inmense... there are no words to describe it, but i did not hide from it, i looked to him with anger, letting it know i dont want it near anymore, and after this it started to fade away.
Years passed, its 2014, and i've done Reiki for 5 months during that year and then quit. I've sensed heat and energy and i can say its amazing, the vibrating sensation, the feeling of like leaving the body is awesome. December 2014 i was on my kitchen, i remember cooking pizza, it was 4am, i was waiting for the pizza to be cooked, so i was standing around watching TV, and then suddenly my backyard's door got lighten up from behind in white light, you could see the shades of light.
Time passed again, i started going out more, taking all kinds of drugs, and noticed that whenever i went to sleep high , the more i saw shadows, not even at my place, but everywhere i layed down and sleep, they hunted me, they made noises. So i thought, what the heck? There must be a direct relation of this entities with drugs.
3 Years passed and its 2017, never had more of this negative experiences, but my dreams are become more and more lucid, i dont have control over them, but i remember very clearly.
Also during all these years there's seems to be a connection with these numbers, i see them everywhere, and whenever i see them its because im on the right path or something big is about to happen, they are 000 and 318, wich this synchronicity is both shared with my other family member, only experienced by the two of us, we see these numbers everywhere.
Also since 7 years old, I see very small bright blueish/white dots every week, like im watching something and then there's a flash, a little blue dot comming out of nowhere for half a second, like a blink.
Last week i've tried 5-Meo-DMT thinking it was DMT (i was invited to a dmt trip) but the most i've felt was a deeper connection to my surroundings, a deeper breath and calmness, didn't feel no ego destruction or anything like that, i think the pipe got a bit burnt.
I would like to try Ayahuasca as soon as i can for the REAL DMT TRIP, i want to experience Hyperspace. I need to talk again to that levitating being on the yellow ball of energy.
Have you ever experienced any of this? Who was this being talking to me? What are these numbers?
Would it be possible for me to meet him again?
Well i've been through a lot of crazy stuff and its the first time im sharing all this with people.
Thanks in advance for taking the time to read all this, very appreciated.
