Ayahuasca would take me in her arms, cradle me and say everything will be ok, in the proceeding months I became a symbol of light and bubbles, everything was and was going to be ok. At this point, it feels everything has caught up again. Does a human being sit with the discomfort of being or do something to make it more bearable for the foreseeable future?

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“While most users will emphatically state that their lives are better for using them, when they are asked exactly how that is so, far less of them can actually say. People travel all the way to the jungle to take ayahuasca and then complain that the peace that they feel there disappears shortly after returning home. Surely the idea of using these things is not to have to return over and over to them out of necessity but to incorporate the insights gained into an improved lifestyle…

… Enduring suffering- learning and growing through it, using life's hardships as opportunities for growth through understanding is integral to the path. And there will be suffering. While it is a guarantee that life will bring turmoil, it is not a given that one must be in misery. The spiritual foundation that can be established through having personal experiential encounters within one's own 'divine space' with something far greater than themselves is an especially useful foil to the darkness of misery. Whether or not one considers themselves theists or not, 'spirituality' - that is, an inner connection with the mysteries of the material universe, is part of the human makeup, and satisfying a desire to understand the role of consciousness within it is the human condition. A powerful psychedelic experience of the kind talked about here can go a long way toward solving one’s personal questions about the Great Mystery, although as previously stated that in and of itself opens a whole new set of problems and is not the be all and end all of the path…

… The fact is, is that within western culture there is very little that one can attach a psychedelic world view to creates difficulties. There are really no places to turn to seek advice and as a result one can feel isolated with their new found understanding. Without joining a religion, there is not much framework available to attach the esoteric thoughts derived in psychedelic space. Suddenly getting the great punchline to the great cosmic joke, but with nobody to tell it to is a lonely room!

It breaks my heart though when I hear people complain about losing the vision and state that they don’t know what their work has done for them, even though they will use terms like shamanic and healing to describe it. For some, posturing and self-proclaimed enlightenment may be part of a game they are playing, and for others repeat trips may also be desirable but for any, and especially those whose goal is getting as much out of it as possible, faltering is entirely understandable and is due more to a lack of resources and language than any lack of veracity or conviction…

… Whether one engages in an ayahuasca ceremony in the jungle or has a deep mushroom trip in their backyard, coming ‘back to earth’ and to their normal routine can quickly erase the psychic, emotional or spiritual gains. Many people counter this by doing continual booster doses, but it seems to be not much better than the western medicine adherents claim superiority over if that is the case. For many who have utilized micro dosing, they have found it to be a very effective way to reap beneficial properties of psychedelics (the anecdotal literature and research deals mostly with psilocybin and LSD) without ingesting doses large enough to have a psychoactive effect. Users of LSD report that taking doses of between 10ug and 25ug (with a typical recreational dose hovering around 75-100ug, and effects typically felt above 50ug) in dosing regimens that can last for short periods of days to indefinite terms increases creativity and productivity, stabilizes mood, lifts depression and other potent beneficial effects without the side effects of pharmaceutical drugs….

… It is advisable not to go it alone. Unfortunately, in our culture, having expansive visions of a self, unencumbered by materialistic desire, lust and greed, moving with deliberation to be a positive force in the world is not exactly supported at large. Going through periods of depression and doubt are not a risk, but are a certainty. These can be looked at as opportunities to test the veracity of your path but most likely will be met with grief and confusion. You will be beset by challenges and doubt from without as well as within, and having the benefit of community can be a blessing if you find the right one. Retaining conviction in the veracity of one's vision is crucial to both integrating and maintaining balance, grounding and direction.

… Psychedelics can afford us the knowledge and insight of knowing oneself unfettered by illusory bonds of delusion. Freed from the binding and petty motivations of greed and lust, forging a path within a culture that reveres those things is a challenge. But it is one that must be met if you are called to it. The psychedelic experience has always been part of the human experience, until only very recently in our history when it was challenged by fearful and ignorant people with power. If you have taken part in the knowledge they offer, eaten the metaphorical red pill, what are you going to do now?”