Hi there,
My name is Alex, im a 33 year old male and i need some help to understand on what im up on “here“
I dont want to waste your/our time, wverything is meant as it is, and im not kidding
I try to hold it short
this thread is both, my helpseeking and my introduction
I was hooked on to another forum... after a few months i found the tryptamine-section, i read a review from another user about DMT, then a feeling from my stomach crowls up to my breast which filled me up with so much pleasure/peace/everything good that it was hard to hold back tears.. in the same time i got that ultimate “yes, i know it all---deja vous“ and my body, or my soul, or anything else from “me“ started to vibrate,,,,, yes i felt it, really.
I must say, a long time ago i was taking very high dose of another psychedelic hallucinogen, and all that sounds familiar! In a different way, but in the “raw“ way it was the same. I got very very very deep into the “worlds“ and as you would describe “entities“ all over these trips.
If someone is interestet in my none-dmt tripreports i can translate them
In the other forum a guy said “no matter what hallucinetic you take, you will get all the same place with different “view“ ,,,, nice guy
Also after i heard of tryptamines i got several events in real life like viewings of lizards in my garden, moments that exactly were given to me. I lnow things are there, thats not the wuestion, they crystallize out more and more in my life, but i dont know wgat to do with. All i know now is, if i help “really“ help others, the next time someone or somewhat helps me
For example, last year i mentally helped a “methhead“ to get clean. This year a south american helped me “his last working day“ we were talking about life, death, spirit, and finally aya
So you know what i mean when i say i cant ignore this signs....
Now,,, please dont laugh,, its now getting really weird
since i was 10 or 12 i made myself a big ball of energy, it was 30m above me and sometimes i take and sometimes i gave energy from/to it... i forgot about it... till 7 years ago.. i was at a shaman dr with my wife and the shaman takes energy from what it can take to give it to my wife... and i tryed it to give---> the shaman said there were snowflakes for my wife... and then i knowed it was from me “dont ask
“ as i was goingvtobget my cure the shaman said “oh, see, you are really open to that things too“ i was like ““X-D yeah““last year i noticed its getting smaller/fades away.... dont mind, because i got lots of energy. Then my mother died 3 months later (yes i know, thats more bad,,, but i know natures plan/true sense know
so i can now take that hard piece) and the ball was gone and my “energy“ too
i really wanna meet the shaman again...
Dont know why, but i think its for here, yesterday the name Ploika was given to me. Propably it is for you
Ploika is a female entity.... yah i know, but i got contact to entitys before in my halucinogenetic-time, and there were 2 brothers for example.