I would just like to echo these sentiments. Before using entheogens, I was a bigot filled with much loathing. I felt I had been wronged by life, betrayed by god, and had an incredible social paranoia. While I was and am still outgoing, I felt like everyone had it out for me, so I had it out for them. I was consumed in pity and loathing for myself, and sought out the worlds method for happiness. It didn't work. What started as a curiousity for a high that would bring me to another realm, percipitated by a tiny mushroom, ended in a long journey that pulled me out of the dark cloud that had condensed over my life. Now that I have been able to seperate myself from the world and those that make up its aristocracy, I see it for what it really is. Its a sham. People breaking their backs for others so they can earn pieces of paper with the faces of dead presidents printed on them. Then they trade these pieces of paper for shit that they think will make them happy. These pieces of paper keep people divided. They keep the poor hungery, and the rich at the top of the pyramid.

What's funny is that money used to be relatively easy to come by. It gave people mass amounts of liesure time. Liesure time that was applied towards creativity and invention. There is no more of that. Now money is to hard to come by for most people to be motivated enough to apply their genous. But survival is still easy enough where they don't have to be inventive out of pure neccessity. Intellectual diversity is shrinking down to a pool of the educated, and this is not good! Something needs to change, now.

I too have felt disconnected for a long time. I didn't understand it until earlier this year, but for my whole life I have felt different, at odds with the society around me. I always knew it just wasn't right, that there was something missing, that things felt out of place. That feeling has only grown over the last year, but now theres an understanding of what is going on. The old is falling away, a new beginning awaits, but not until enough people wake up from the illusion that has been pulled down over their eyes.

Pssilocibinnn, you are being given the chance to clear out the old. If old things are happening to you again, there are lessons to be learned in order for you to move on to the next stage of your awakening. Take the bad feelings and make them good, figure out how to turn them into a positive, look at them from a different angle or perspective. In doing that you resolve and move on. It is hard, no one said it would be easy, but you are the change you want to see in the world. It must be centered in yourself before it can expand outward.

Sit, meditate, be at peace. Read, challenge old paradigms, think. The answers are out there, if you are willing to ask the questions...

Aegle..I love your posts! You seem so full of love! Sometimes I get frustrated and say thigs the wrong way I think and I find more often I read your posts and feel better! Thanks for posting!

Fractal Enchantment

Why thank you, i am very much humbled by your comments. I do my best every day to spread as much love and compassion as i can as i see very little of it around these days. It really warms my heart that my posts make some sort of small positive difference. I am greatly inspired by your posts Fractal, often i feel we are on exactly the same page. Your are a bright and shining light my friend. Thank you so much for your kind words.


Much Peace, Happiness and Sunshine.

I've got to agrree with you here. as ive gotten older ive found myself being pushed away from my friends... its like all they do is think for themselves... at this age no-one really has "friends" they just have people they hang around with, some people need to wake up and find out that its not all just about self benefit.