I am comming down from one of the most intense psychedelic experiences of my life..easily as reality shattering as anything DMT, mushrooms or ayahuasca has thrown at me..
I took about 7 grams of dried torch..I was all over the city while comming up, meeting up with some friends at my friends house etc on the way to the beach..
fast foreward about 4-5 hours after I took the mescaline, on the beach we all smoke a joint..up until this point I was feeling great, really relaxed and tripping mildly, nice euphoria..just really soo nice..I had also taken some bufotenine about 30 minutes before the mescaline and it seemed to boost the mescaline a bit and help it kick in faster..
So anyway, we smoke this joint and I start getting really far out there all of a sudden a few minutes later..I have been smoking only occasionally so have no tolerance..I basically had to get up and leave my circle of friends who were just stoned and one of them on mushrooms becasue I was hallucinating so damn hard and when I closed my eyes I was like in another world..
But the really crazy part was the time distortion..but it was even more than that..I swear to god i could see and feel time as it was moving through space...I got caught in a loop, experiencing the same 10 or so seconds over and over and over again like 50 times at least..and I could hear echos of that moment building up like waves lapping the shoreline of my mind creating fractals of the moment..god this is so hard to explain..but I really understand what they mean in all the old literature about time freezing and such things while on psychedelics..I was really freaking out..I wanted to cry..I crawled into the woods all alone and wandered around tormented by the fact that time existed, but I coulnt quite integrate with "my place in it"..
I experienced something similar once with ayahuasca brewed with chaliponga, but even that had nothing on this..this was so god damn real..at the time I was literally convinved that I was time traveling, thats how far gone I was..from only 7 grams torch!..the cannabis obviousily played a big role though..
I will never ever forget this day...what I went through shook me to the core of my being..left me ina mess laying in the woods drooling on myself not knowing weather to cry or laugh in amazment..previous experiments with 10 grams torch didnt bring me close to the place I got to today..it was frickin so amazing..the visuals were really intense as well, everything was shimmereing and swaying back and forth, leaves kicked up by my feet into the air would leave sparkling after images that stayed there floating for 30 senconds to a minute after the actaul event..I could see time as it was happening, but it was completely perceptual, I was imbedded in it..in all times..I sort of touched down on quantum levels of myslef or something, existing inthe past and present at the same time, and the residues from these time frames started to actaully speak back to me in the form of voices in my head for about 10 minutes..thats when I really started to loose it..
I was forgetting my name and where I was etc as well..it was fucked..complete mindfuck...all of these really strong effects only lasted an hour or so until it started to calm back down and feel ok again..but I was too shook up and by that time I had wandered so far in the woods that when I got to the highway I was too far from my freinds to want to go back..so I kept walking until I got back into the downtown area and the sunset stip of beaches and flopped down into the sand and lay there for a good 30 minutes looking up at the sky watching the clouds shift around and melt and form crazy geometric patterens..finally got on the bus and headed to a freinds house where I chilled with 2 friends for an hour and then went to his girlfreinds house for thankgiving dinner..
By that time I was comming down and ate a good dinner and met some cool people..her roommates BF was super cool, she told him I was on mescaline and he seemed really interested, said he was waiting to try it and he was really into psychedelics, and then he brought up DMT..he said he was reading about it alot and wanted to try an extraction soon, I told him I would help him..
I drank 2 beers and it helped take the stimulating edge off the comedown a bit, and then smoked some more pot..hopped on the skytrain and caught a bus and here I am!
But I feel drained an just so dman thankful to have made it through the crazy peak..god it was insane..Makes me think about how people talk about time loops and time freezing while on acid..and I am thinking that smoking cannabis may play a part..time distortion is a main effect of cannabis when one takes it occasionally..mix that with another strong psychedelic and it can be VERY intense..
Anyway..not something I would like to repeat in the next little while thats for sure! It was utterly facinating AFTER it took place..but freaky as hell while it was happening.
Long live the unwoke.