recently dipped my feet into the hyperspace pool. was smoking light yellow crystals sandwiched between cannabis in a bong. started very slowly with around 10mg or so and only got mild visuals and a very overwhelming warm feeling. already i could tell whatever it was is was was exciting. (i assume it was extracted from an acacia obtus, ect). then i went a little further... this is when i got really confused. i loaded about 20mg-30mg into another sandwich then had heavy fractals in my vision and i had many voices (some friends) in my head telling me to take another hit, they chanted it was very amusing and i joined in. it felt too strong though, i wasnt ready. i laid down and looked around in amazement, i closed my eyes and had intense fractal imagery, my ears were ringing and my lips were swollen. i felt like i had been poisoned. plant poison. teach you to eat my bark punk, i thought. worried about the swollen lips i came here and lurked. convinced myself it was normal after reasearching and continued my journey. i had a few more times like the one described, seemingly always with this idea that i needed more but was afraid of what would happen. i decided to concentrate more on just exploring lower doses feeling like i wasnt ready. with the same ROA as above a couple of days later i tried again. a few low doses later and i got confident. i decided i would use it like mushrooms or lsd and toke and watch tv. i turned on seinfeld and packed a sandwich. i smoked it and felt as if i had a tolerance as it had only been about 30mins-1hr after my last hit. so i loaded another, smoked it, held it in for a moment and exhaled. everything felt normal, the fractals were coming to play and i felt good. seinfeld was hard to watch and extremely distorted but still there, everything seemed to speed up all of a sudden an intense feeling like the universe was collapsing in on itself. seinfeld then went from what sounded like chaotic roars and many voices talking over eachother turned to a calm seemingly dreamlike television show. i thought i had broken through i thought this is it woo hoo! lets learn. but i seemed to be paralyzed. i looked down at myself laying there and was repulsed, well certainly not happy with what i saw. i began to have revelations about where i was. i started realising the spices alien nature and felt infected by it, i felt like i had been weighed on almighty scales and found unworthy. tossed into an eternal pit of unhappy seinfeld watching. a hell of sorts for me to do some thinking. it felt like the worst thing i could be stuck doing and i was going to do it forever. i was scared and angry but also relieved i had been through death or whatever it was and accepted my fate. the infectious god thing was telling me all of this while i was realising it. i wanted out. NOW! i had a realisation. that i still had to breakthrough more. this paralyzed state was fake, like the matrix a projection on my mind. the voice said that i already knew what i needed to do. i did. i needed to move. more than that i was starting to feel like if i died i would reset back to before i smoked the dmt that killed me. i decided that i should check a clock and wait a while before commiting to anything like that. so i grabbed my phone and sat there and watched time and i was back.. i guess.. what is back. less fractals? dmt seemed to answer no questions. it left me scared and confused. all i had were many many more questions that i started with which was one of the greatest feelings ive ever had. im not proof reading this this is just a go hard trip report i guess. i dont even know if it makes sense but here it is. i would love some feedback as i am unsure of my next step. i have taken dmt a couple more times since then with results that seem to make me even more confused. im not sure if i have broken through and definately feel like i could go further but am worried about effects on my mental health and fear extreme time dialation. should i go further? have i gone too far? also about 2 weeks after this my friend called me and asked if i wanted a ticket to a sold out seinfeld show. it added to my bewilerment, i went and it was surreal. i pondered the trip while watching him preform.