So I was trying to show my friend who has a high resistance to psychs the other side. This documents me taking the same dose as him, because I wanted him to see what his dose would do to a normal person.
We are both male, I am 23 and he is 35.
Both of our set and settings are currently the best they've ever been.
I lightly simmered 30g acacia confusa root bark about 3x 30 min. Poached a few egg whites in it, and reduced it down to 150ml each. I happen to know this particular bark sits at 1-1.5%, so our approximate DMT dose was 150-200mg. 30 minutes before drinking the brew, we both took 200mg of full spectrum Harmala freebase. I did not purge, but my friend did at around 30 min. Onset of effects was very fast, I was tripping within 15 minutes, my friend was after 40 minutes.
He reported 2 hours after drinking the brew that he had an experience where he faced intense existential terror but only for a brief time before it was back to euphoria, and then went back to baseline. He went to bed right after this so I might have more to report on his experience tomorrow.
Unsurprisingly for me, having a normal tolerance, reality quickly dissolved into total chaos. It was as if you took a can of white and black paint and threw all of it at a canvas at once. The first hour I was just lost, I had no sense of self and euphoria and terror seemed around every corner. By the time an hour and a half had past I was still in the breakthrough but I was regaining a sense of self, ego still gone but I knew that I existed again in some weird sense. Then like a light through the darkness, an idea punctured the chaos that I really should check on my friend. It was at this point that I started rejecting the trip so I could reconstruct enough of my ego to operate on a basic level. If you've never done this, it's extremely mentally taxing and takes a ridiculous amount of willpower. Really not conducive to making your trip positive. Nonetheless I managed to get up and go check on him, we had a chat and he told me about his trip. This was the most difficult part for me. The negative delusions were getting harder to ignore and I could feel control slipping. My friend went to bed, and then I was alone and got stuck in a series of weird loops for an hour or so, like walking around the condo repeatedly in spiral patterns. I eventually realized that I was going to seriously hurt my psyche unless I started accepting the trip again. At this point I laid down with my eyes closed, re-entered chaos, and was healed there from what had happened previously. During this last hour and a half i was comforted by an entity, that said it would not let me suffer negative consequences for caring about someone more than myself. Total duration of effects for me was 4.5 hours.
I would write more about how I feel about the trip but this is all I have in me for now. I'll check back in tomorrow at some point.
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