I was at a small festival in north east Aus at the end of May, I hadn't planned on taking any psychedelics at this one until the second day in I realised that I could have a really good meditation session which would clear me out mentally to enjoy the party even further. Often I would take a nice dose on the dance floor and enjoy what music does to my mind, bending light and sound in very interesting ways. However in recent months I had enjoyed incredible experiences by just quietly meditating and praying for spirits to join me while on a particular mix of psychedelics.
For some examples lets backtrack:
A few months earlier at another larger festival in Victoria I took a 20mg of 2-CB as it came on I insufflated a point of ketamine and layed down in my tent meditating. I could faintly see faces and got incredibly direct intuitive downloads, telling me who I should see and what to give them or talk to them about. I loved the experience, and actually did what those things that came to me with some success.
A few months later I took 2,5C-nbome + ketamine as it came on, at a friends house, I was home alone. I listened to a heart focus meditation for 20min, at this time I was traveling out of my body and could see the neighborhood around me, then came on a cd about finding your spirit guides. 25C-nbome is normally very visual for me, in terms of seeing energy. I noticed the room was unusually filled with energy, I thought possibly because I was in the middle of the city. At this point the voice on the cd said that I must give them permission before they would interact with me. I have had some experience with spirits and other dimensional beings before smoking DMT, and have only had positive experiences in the 6 years of use. So I said, yes, I give you permission. With my eyes closed see the energy in my head very clearly, but slowly I could see another even brighter energy stream completely enveloping and matching all the energy in my system. At that point the voice said that they have it so I can now relax. I had never felt a relaxation like this before, it was as if my entire brain stopped having to perform any tasks, it was so nice, it felt like such a relief of a strain that I was never even aware of. They performed a process that felt very healing.
As it went on I could interact with this spirit who's energy looked like a sentinel from the movie 'The Matrix' but I asked him to show me his face, and his face would very clearly appear infront of me. He looked like an asian monk or something. Then his face disappeared and his body appeared without a face on the head. He had a robe on and a pen in his had, he would point the pen at a spot on a map and I would hear exactly what was going on in that part of the city, it was absolutely stunning, the detail of the sound, complete surround sound and depth of sound. As if I was there, but I was actually in the basement of a house. I could he car wheels, birds, people talking, even a person taking a shower half in another building. The spirit would even interact with me when I asked questions about tracking something with sound via energy tunnels. As I gather it each of us as well as spirits give of energy tunnels or feelers, which we can learn to direct and eventually invert and use as microphones.
Anyway back to my story at the small festival in north QLD, I had a toke of changa with some friends and went to relax in my tent to prepare for the meditation.
First I set my intention for the meditation, asking for help to reaching higher states of consciousness naturally, without psychedelics.
I then took another mix of 25C-nbome (1200μg) and 100mg of ketamine. It felt like the phenethylamine supercharged my energetic frequency and ketamine would do it too adding to the high vibrational state I was already in and at the same time helping with the relaxation and deepening of the meditation.
I once again called on my spirit guides and guardians to help me find a benevolent being to help with this meditation and healing especially among the extraterrestrial presences helping humanity at this time.
Maybe 5mins later with my Eyes Shut - I saw two white beings with black eyes, almost like your typical grey ET but with a smaller head and smaller eyes. I can't be 100% sure they were Ets and not spirits, but It felt that way to me, there was definitely a male and a female. They were speaking to me telepathically, but it was as if they weren't speaking to my conscious mind, but rather a higher part of me that my ego didn't seem to have direct control over, because the next thing I blurt out was “Don't worry about the pain just do what needs to be done” then I found myself wondering “thats weird why did I just say/think that?”
The beings did seem to have an expression of concern on their faces, but the next thing I know the female dives down onto me and completely disappeared into my body followed by her companion.
What followed was like nothing I ever expected or have ever experienced before.
In my minds eye I could see structures of what looked like pathways in my body and brain, I would move automatically to different parts, at first I couldn't make out what was going on, it all felt like a bit of a roller coaster.
Then I saw what looked like a drill coming closer to this white wall, it began to drill and instantly I felt a sharp burning pain just behind my ear on my skull. I saw the drill punch two holes through my skull and then they put this mesh in the hole to stop it from collapsing.
Skull drill locationsThen They seemed to install some kind of device that later proved to be both a fluid pressure and suction pump. They then repeated the procedure at the bottom of my spine with hole on each side of my coccyx.
Ventricular system diagramI could see them moving all throughout my ventricular system in my brain where there was a thick build-up of particulate sheets, some which looked like fluoride and calcium sheets that came off like glass as they sucked the fluids out of my spinal chord collapsing the cavities of the ventricles and crushing the particulate sheets. Then they proceeded to spray the crystal chunks off the walls off the left and right ventricles along the drainage points down to the third ventricle then down the cerebral aqueduct (which I previously thought was a roller-coaster) and all the way down through the 4th ventricle then down my spinal column's central canal.
The pain was immense at that point, it felt like glass passing through my spine hurting every nerve in my body on the way down. Until it got to the bottom, where they pumped the crystal gunk out the bottom of my spine through the two drilled holes.
Each of the Ventricles they flushed at least 10-20 times, I lost count after 10 due to having to come up with new ways to deal with the pain. I was so grateful that I could actually see and understand what was going on or the fear and panic would have overcome me.
The procedure didn't just take an hour or two like I first thought, it started at sunset, and went all night, all the next day and I managed to get them to stop for a second to take a much needed piss late that afternoon then they went at it again for a few hours the following night. I couldn't move at all the entire time since they completely locked my neck and hip muscles in place, plus every time I struggled to move it felt like there were actual devices still stuck in my skull and brain, I was too afraid I would interrupt their surgery and totally screw up my brain.
At one point during the first night my partner came back to the tent to sleep next to me, all I could manage to say is “please don't come in, I’m busy getting brain surgery”. My partner seemed to totally believe me straight away, because later my partner told me “I could see your energy at the bottom of the tent, then right above you a bright golden light totally illuminated your tent.”
I missed the entire party, I could hear my favorite music as I was getting brain surgery done by extraterrestrials, I remember begging them to stop so I could go have a dance, but they refused. I got the feeling like once the process had started they couldn't leave those crystals free in my central nervous system.
After I could finally move again, I could barely walk, I was so sore, especially at the bottom of my spine and on the one side of my head. I asked my partner if she could see anything at those spots and she was totally stunned. She said the side of my head was very red behind my ear, and the bottom of my spine had a lump the size of my partners fist!
I felt it and it was huge, there were also massive red marks on my lower back.
It looked like the crystals and gunk they pumped out of my CNS was still trapped in the soft tissues, I remember wondering if it would ever go away or if I’d have to cut it out.
A few days later the swelling went down and I could see two distinct cuts or burn marks on either side of my coccyx. See the photos.
Marks on lower backSince then I have gotten much better and I actually do feel a lot clearer than before, Its hard to put my finger on the change that has occurred in me but even though its subtle its also quite profound. I feel like I'm much closer to perceiving energy without psychedelics now, and seem to have a more acute intuition. The change is great and very welcome. Thanks to who ever it was that helped me circulate my cerebrospinal fluid better, I welcome further interaction with you! I'm sure its just the first step in the right direction along a long path of healing.
This is a great example of the role specific intention setting and invocation plays in meditation, and how psychedelics can help reach those higher states that are normally only accessible to psychic sensitives. I highly recommend using them for meditation over partying.