DMT saved my life. I was a 40 year old man, and I was at the end of my rope. All my friends had gotten married and had children, and I was still single and alone. I didn't see much point in living anymore. I quit my job and withdrew my 401k with the intentions of burning through it all. Then, once it was gone, I was going to end my life. I decided I wanted to try as many things as I could before the end and after about a year of unemployment, I came across some DMT.

I sat back in my studio apartment alone, put on some Evanescence - My Immortal, and smoked my first DMT. It was unbelievable. While the visions were intense, I wasn't in another place, I was still in my apartment. I did have what I would call and emotional breakthrough though. There was a feeling of a presence, I felt as if I wasn't alone anymore. I just felt so loved and the music was just so unbelievably beautiful. I've never been so happy.

I did do quite a bit of research before trying it, and it seems a lot of people have a fear of going back to DMT. I didn't experience this. What I feel is a strong desire to go back, but along with that there is a guilt. I feel like I stole something, something I hadn't earned yet, something beautiful, something worth waiting for, something worth living for. This is by no means meant to discourage anyone from trying it, and it did save my life. If you find yourself in a similar situation I'd say go all in. If I ever find my self at the end of my rope again, I know I will.

DMT is by no means a "cheat code" or "shortcut", you didn't steal anything, you stumbled upon something, something wonderful. So no need at all to feel guilty about wanting to go back, if you feel like going back, go back. As long as you don't treat it with disrespect, you don't get cocky, and you're curious, dive in. I did, and it was the best decision ever, although i did it orally (Mimosa Hostilis) with Peganum Harmala (Syrian Rue), i was taking it pretty regularly there for about a couple years, it was amazing. And if it helps you, there's nothing wrong with that imo. Welcome aboard

Beautiful story, thank you for sharing.

I have also felt the bliss and love that DMT can impart. Absolutely incredible.

You're definitely not alone.

Welcome

Wow, that's so great to hear!
It's amazing how drastically it can change your outlook on life. I hope you have many more wonderful experiences, with DMT and without. Welcome to the nexus, there are loads of amazing people here to talk with, and a wealth of knowledge and experience.
I wish you the best, this is an amazing compound that can help immensely if used with the right intention and set/setting.

Take care

Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate a bit to many of the feelings you expressed. Though I am not as old as you, I know the feeling of being quite alone as well as feeling like lol your friends are moving on to bigger and better things. I too quit my job not too long ago and the money I had made i quickly did spend.

I do not think you "stole" anything. Nor do I think you should think that way. Before having done my first extraction I used to always, and still do, believe that DMT would find you. You couldn't find it. No matter how hard I tried to find it when I didn't have any, I couldn't. Then when I pups forget about it, it would appear. You certainly earned it my friend. "It" knew your wreck less plan and "it" stepped in and intervened as seemlessly as the experience and visions. "It" came when it was time.

Now having done my own extractions and readily having some on hand, I now pay close mind and respect to when, how often, and why. The signs are there.

I am so glad for you and your experience. You will hopefully have many more to come. Or however many you need.

I always like to set an intention before hand too. I sure every one here has there own ritualistic method administration, I'm sure you will have any more wonderful, and insightful journeys.

Stay alive brother, there's plenty of people yet to be met.

That is a great story. I can empathize with you. I feel very much the same about similar substances. Here's to opening a new path, discovery and illumination. Life is stranger than one could imagine, and pretty interesting, eh?

I can relate your entire post!

I get more excited than fearful with DMT. I don't feel a guilt about it but I do feel like when I am coming back I feel a sense like being thrown in jail. I was so free moments earlier and lost in time and then suddenly I begin to feel my finger and toes and then my whole body. Constrained in this human form again. I would get a homesick feeling. I wanted to go back over and over, and I did.

I changed my perspective about being stuck in this body of mine. It doesn't feel like a prison any longer. It feels like I chose this person I am now. A part of me still feels a little homesick to be honest. Not sure how to rid myself of the feeling. It's a feeling of being alone, a feeling of being out of place. Sometimes I don't want to go back because I am afraid to create more homesick. I get a little anxiety just before because of this feeling. It's not fear, it's a wanting. Being homesick is a powerful emotion. I look at it and it just looks back at me. It feel permanent. I feel like I will always be homesick. I dunno....

Welcome to the Nexus!

That is amazing HiBread.
I think you saved yourself with dmt being the catalyst.
So nothing is 'stolen' , instead is 'earned'.

Namaste HiBread! Seems like life has much more in store for you


the ebb & flow will see us back home someday, amigo! love & peace