I was wondering what to post for the first time here and recent trip gave me an excellent opportunity.

I'm going to tell you about the most terrifying thing I have ever experienced in my life.

Few days ago I pulled a new batch from mhrb solution and decided to test it with my gf in the evening. Before the preparations we had an argument, I was rude to her and she got really upset. I continued setting up as if nothing happened.

Weighted 45mg;
Vaped;
Inhaled as much as I could;
Held for a few seconds;
[Reality started to distort];
Exhaled;
Did a second toke;

I took a comfortable position on a sofa, closed my eyes and... booom. It felt like something transformed whole negative energy of the room into a giant extraterrestrial hammer and hit me in the head really, really, really hard. I felt extremely frightened and completely forgot how to behave in that condition. Opened eyes and what I saw was even more horrific. Previously well lit room was so dark I could only see a barely shimmering light. The visuals were extremely dark and intense. I wanted it to stop; tried to stand up and... booom. I got another serious hit with a dmt hammer and got knocked down. It was like some kind of a presence asking "where do you think you are going?" while warming up for a torture session.
After that it grabbed my consciousness and took deep into a place what I later called "Museum of Sins" where I could see the exhibition of my wrong doings. Felt like it dragged me to each of my "art" and showed me what a piece of crap I was while beating me with it's hammer. It was pointing me that I wasn't worthy of visiting a hyperspace, I wasn't worthy of being loved, I wasn't worthy of anything with that attitude. I was so scared even thought of never smoking dmt again(I realized why lots of people never get back to it after first experience).
Finally it let me go and my fear started to wear off with the visuals.

Hopefully, I'll learn my lesson.

To sum up, don't repeat my mistakes, always judge your actions and don't be mean and rude to people who care about you, or anyone else. Don't make MR. DMT Presence use it's extraterrestrial hammer on you

Peace

Great description of your experience!

This is what contributes to the preflight anxiety. Every time we venture, we don't know where we're going to end up. All we know is that we won't be able to leave for a while.

I am glad that you were able to take some positives from it though.

Set and setting, my friend, set and setting. Having an argument with someone you love, not resolving the issue, and then blasting into hyperspace as if nothing happened is a recipe for disaster, in my opinion. It is highly likely that the negative emotions you were feeling due to the altercation seeped their way into your experience. I have been guilty of doing something similar and have since learned my lesson. Here is what happened:

Years ago, I was having an argument with my GF (ex GF now) and it blew itself out of proportion and she left the apartment. Being upset and wanting to escape, I ate a bunch of mushrooms and went for a walk. To give a little background information, this was a period of time in my life where I was slowly falling into the deep end, where all drug usage was recreational and a form of escapism. It was a path I am not proud of but one that was necessary and one that (eventually and thankfully) led me to being the person I am today.

Long story short, she called me somewhere in the middle of this experience to tell me that she was leaving me for someone else. Being under the influence of a powerful psychedelic caused an inability to process, and it led to a mental breakdown of sorts...temporary insanity. I was hysterical for hours until the trip finally ended. During that time, I called many people for help, including both of my parents, but nothing seemed to be able to calm me down. It was one of the worst experiences of my life and was brought upon myself due to lack of preparation and total disregard for set and setting. It is an experience that still haunts me from time to time.

The point of all this is make sure you are in a safe place and in a good mindset before ingesting any psychedelics. Most (not all) negative experiences can be mitigated by following that one simple rule: Proper set and setting.

Welcome to the Nexus!

And now the hard work begins: putting the lessons into practice. Good luck

[edit] Oh you were just ahead of me with the post Grateful One, yeah well said!

I can definitely call this experience positive one because it served as a good lesson. It's like I needed it to fully appreciate the potential and power of dmt.

Although, these kind of experiences can be really traumatizing and hard to recover, good thing is that they defy us and change us to a better versions of ourselves. I doubt there is anything in the world that can teach us about ourselves better than these experiences. I think everyone needs a lesson or two like this in their lives.

Hopefully, lessons will be learned, we will grow up, evolve and appreciate more what we take for granted from life and people around us.


Thanks It will definitely take a lot of effort to implement the lesson in everyday life, but yeah, I'll try my best