Not really on the cannabis thing. And yes, today is my first day ceasing all racetam use. I don't think I will go back unless I discover a damn good reason. I realized something today I want to mention. Last night, after digging up some in-depth information on Alpha-GPC, and reading more about why people say you should always take a choline source with a racetam at a ratio of 1:4, because the racetam "uses" up the Acetylcholine [ACh], I decided I would try the Alpha-GPC by itself at a higher dosage than I have been taking with the racetams. I read also that how one's head feels upon waking can provide some clues at to whether you are ACh deficient or if you might have excess ACh in the system. The symptoms are different, and I've spent quite a while trying to tease them apart. It's a goldilocks zone for sure. So, I tried an experiment.

I took 500 mg of Alpha GPC last night before bed. Had vivid dreams of course. But the best part... I woke up an hour earlier than usual feeling fantastic and peaceful, and was able to meditate much easier than usual. That was this morning. Feeling so amazing, I thought I'd take another 500 mg dose, figuring that perhaps the reason for my hot-eye symptom has something to do with racetams stressing my brain's ability to procure the necessary ACh to fuel the processes of the Racetam. Maybe I need to replenish my ACh levels? Then, later in the morning I crammed for two hours for a test, squeezing 4 weeks of information from lectures into a hardcore 2 hour study session. Took the test, and was finished before most everybody else. It was a breeze! My memory is incredible, causing an increase in my self-confidence. I just feel amazing, but I don't feel stimulated, I don't feel like I'm being pushed by some drug, like one might feel if one doses caffeine or modafinil or huperzine a or noopept. Rather, I just have a calm clear mind with above average ability to focus intensely if I desire to. The realization is the following: The racetams are great. But I never realized until today's experience that perhaps the effect I most appreciated in my past experiences with the racetams was not the racetam itself, but the Alpha-GPC! And what we may all need is not stimulants or racetams or anything whatsoever, but to replenish our ACh levels.

Why is this a spectacular discovery? Because it corroborates my theory on why semen conservation works in a physical sense. Read the next paragraph after this one if you wish to get an idea of what I mean. Alpha-GPC is an endogenously created compound. I suspect that probably most of these neurodegenerative diseases (at least in men) that are occurring earlier and earlier in life on average such as Alzheimers, Parkinson's, Multiple Sclerosis (all forms of Neurasthenia) and etc are the progressive result over time of a chronic deficiency of the primary constituent of the nervous system, choline! I won't say anymore unless someone wants me to. Kind of going left-field here. The point is that perhaps supplementation with Alpha-GPC addresses this choline deficiency caused chiefly by repeated loss of the same fluids that would otherwise build up in the nervous system, leading to a restoration of one's memory, focus, attention span, and so on through a strengthening of one's nerves and by implication improved functioning of one's neurons. Practicing semen conservation simply would eliminate the need to take anything at all, as the fluids generated by the body are being recirculated, not lost. Therefore, there would be no need to take any extraneous choline source, for the choline you do need daily you can acquire from eating a healthy diet by eating some vegetables or some eggs or something every so often. This is just a theory. But it seems to make sense, all things considered.

What effect might semen conservation over time have on the levels of endogenous ACh in the brain? I'd bet high IQ scores correspond to thinking agility and speed -> processes rendered by transmission of ACh. (Of course this is an over-simplification, but I hope you see the point). The nutrients like choline, vitamins, minerals, etc in the seminal fluids otherwise lost through ejaculation get recirculated back into the body resulting (this is the important part) in naturally higher levels of nervous-system supporting (that includes the brain!) goodies concentrating in the cerebrospinal fluid, which is made of basically the same composition of which semen is made. Higher levels of endogenously created ACh by increased availability of choline and other nutrients lead to the fortification and strengthening of the nervous system, and an increased quantity of specifically the neurotransmitter Acetylcholine in the brain. If Acetylcholine is majorly responsible for thinking speed, memory, and bridging the muscular system with the nervous system, then all the beneficial effects commonly touted by people who follow this simple practice make obvious sense.

http://www.stephenhicks....SCONTENTS-text-final.pdf

If you haven't yet already done so, I would highly urge you to read said article concerning the inherent sexually repressed nature of modern civilization/society at large; it seems to add an interesting psychoanalytical twist to your theory of semen conservation-induced productivity.

This is not true. I did a lot of research and asked physics forums about it. Apparantly if you ground yourself in a WIFI environment, the electromagnetic energy finds the nearest path to ground (which is you). So you end up causing more stress and oxidization to your body due to you being grounded in an environment filled with EMF. I have struggled for a long time with EM hypersensitivity and did my research quite extensively.

I enjoyed the rest of your post. When you said abstinence I thought you were speaking of something like 6 months ejaculation free but then you said you have 4 ejaculations in 6 weeks which equates to about one every 8 days. I love the feeling when I get past the week mark, life just becomes so much better. Unfortunately though I have such an incredibly strong compulsion to want to ejaculate and end up thinking about females for a good portion of the day. I end feeling it is not worth it to waste mental energy like that, it isnt healthy to be so caught up in something to that extent, it acts like a delusion in my brain. When I finally ejaculate I feel depressed for about 1-2 days and slowly gets better. This is due to prolactin increase the day after and people use supplements to aid in this prolactin spike (macuna puriens and prolactin inhibitors).

P.S. I don't know how the buddhist monks do it, they really must have let go of desire and reap the benefits of being full of energy! While me over on the other hand, mr hot pants can't keep his hands of himself ends up getting trapped in to the vicious cycle of post-ejaculatory depression.

Article? more like a book. Mind you anything longer than two pages is a book to me and everyone else these days. Can you summarize what he is saying about the results of repression in society?

Wow!!! I think that makes a lot of sense! I swear I'm finding out increasingly that the more I do to help myself in whatever way it invariably leads to more damage than if I had just done nothing at all.
He that would save his life shall lose it. I deeply resist that notion but my experience is teaching me its true.
What? Trust the infinite intelligence of the human body and universal mind? That's it? Nah, it can't be that easy, I find myself thinking often.

Can you provide some sources on what you stated about the EMF in my environment being conducted through me to the ground? For me that is incredibly alarming as I live in a student apartment complex where I am surrounded by at least a dozen wifi signals; plus I have a dozen smart meters on the outside wall just outside my window where my bed is. This is part of the reason I read the book called Earthing and took measures to ensure I sleep grounded via methods I've already described.

I am developing an increasing number of so-called liver spots all over my body (deposits of lipofuscin; brown skin spots) and before I thought I just need to fast and cleanse my liver and organs but now due to what you have said about the increased risk of oxidation I am frankly now very worried that what's caused this proliferation of liver spots is me conducting all this harmful EMF to the earth via my body.

I'm really interested in reading up on whatever research you discovered!

On semen retention;
I recommend the book "Muelos" by Weston Labarre, which is perhaps the seminal (a pun!) anthropological work on the subject.
I don't necessarily agree with everything he writes, but he does make an uncontrived comparison between various "spiritual-physiological" (my term) beliefs worldwide, the upshot being that a common root can be found for semen retention beliefs and, interestingly, headhunting, and weirdly, the knees, in this basic observation;

If you crack open a man's skull, or his spine, or his bones, what you find inside will be a whitish creamy goo.
What comes out of a man's penis when he ejaculates is also a whitish creamy goo.

In the primitive mind, this creamy white goo has a singular origin, which is the skull/brain. LaBarre postulates that this misunderstanding resulted in the various beliefs concerning the retention/loss of semen, the power of the skull, the collection and retention of ancestral bones as well as animal bones and skulls, etc. etc.

Even Leonardo Da Vinci, the great inquiring mind and scientist and inventor, who appears to have an excellent knowledge of anatomy, apparently laboured under the belief that semen must descend from the skull via the spinal column, and in his anatomical drawings drew conduits that are not there in reality.

http://rsnr.royalsociety...ing.org/content/68/4/391

(edit; having taken the trouble to read the article rather than look at the pretty pictures, it appears Da Vinci did correct his ideas as his knowledge of anatomy progressed.)

Interestingly the Eastern spiritual traditions believed that this goo was finite, hence semen retention.
The Western traditions understood the goo as being created at a steady rate within the male organism, and concluded that semen retention was unhealthy, but that excessive expenditure would be physically sapping.

My personal conclusion aligns more with the Western view, but rather with the psychological rather than physiological view that semen retention is unhealthy because it is obsessive. It's also not really in accordance with nature, as is borne out by the fact that one will spontaneously ejaculate during sleep.

The counterweight to that is that sexual obsession, or its relative, sexual compulsion, needs to be guarded against.
This is especially true in the case of obsession with pornography and compulsive masturbation, which is kind of the ideal procratinatory behaviour, but also can induce feelings of shame.

As to your feelings about women, I don't think we need to put anyone on a pedestal, but rather treat everyone equally with courtesy and respect, and you can't go too far wrong.
And, concerning women as sex objects, in my experience women enjoy a man being assertive in the bedroom. Misunderstandings come about because of his behaviour outside of the realm of sex. Sex is a kind of separate thing, separate world, where we do things that do not reflect our daily social behaviour. That's why we keep it private! As long as you behave with courtesy, respect and honesty, and in this day and age a good dose of prudence, you can't go too far wrong.

I can't seem to find the threads atm but if you wan't a definite answer then sign up to the physics forums.com and ask "Will grounding myself cause EM Fields to pass through my body more?"

That should only take about 5 minutes. be sure to post what you get back

Honestly, I experience the same symptoms from poor sleep and especially from sleep debt or sleep deprivation. Don't forget, the time you go to sleep and wake up is as crucial as how much sleep you get. Ideally, you should be falling asleep 3 to 4 hours after sunset and waking up with the sunrise for optimal melatonin production. My friends and I sometimes joke about getting "hot, sleepy eyes" if we're staying up too late. It's really pretty uncomfortable and a strong motivator to get to bed when I start to feel it.

I also practice semen conservation.
I don't even ejaculate during intercourse.
I've been practicing this for years since I found the book "The Multi Orgasmic Man" by Mantak Chia.

I've experienced similar symptoms, burning eyes.
I've suspected it was due to the energies building up to immense degrees.
I even get that burning feeling throughout my entire body at times.

You're taking alot of supplements and it sounds like you read alot.
Perhaps you are altering your blood-pressure and straining your eyes?
When the cold water hits your eyes, it relieves some of the pressure so you feel relief.

Odd thread. There is reasonable evidence that regular ejaculation(10-20/month) is beneficial for overall "prostate health" including reduction in prostate cancer risk.

For those of us old, cis-gendered, hetero and still horny males in monogamous LTRs(aka marriage), a good stiffy used for a consensual(or near consensual) raunchy romp INCLUDING the big ejac, is damn near cause for celebration! Fapping off to porn thrice daily makes fulfilling ones connubial duties pert'near impossible.

As far as a reliable means for raising the kundalini, entheogens seem handy.

https://www.verywell.com...ular-ejaculation-2328515

Peace

Good stuff bro, do you do yoga? If not physical yoga is a good way to channel that hot energy around it wil give you a good boost, good luck.