Hello,
I'm back. The tooth extraction is healing, the jaw pain is lessening and I have had my health and energy back for several days now. Last night for the first time in a couple of weeks, I took a breakthrough dose (45 mg.).
Just when I think I might be beginning to have something figured out, DMT hits me like a scene from the old Monty Python show, "And now, for something completely different!"
The tinnitus sound was there but in the background and did not have an obvious synesthetic component. The music I was listening to integrated nicely into the trip - mostly I remember it sometimes sounded bizarrely slowed down and at others playfully sped up. The "geometry" colors were nice but not as bright/vivid as I remembered from previous experiences. There was a dark/black background/overtone to the transition. As the patterns developed (rapidly) they become more 3-d - they appeared to be unrolling from top and bottom, like scrolls. Soon the "geometry" changed into endless stacks of turning, transforming and smiling yellow square-like (like Lego-men) faces. Stacked endlessly on top of each other and side-by-side and scrolling.
I felt myself being sucked into this scrolling scene and AGAIN had the very convincing thought that my heart wasn't beating and my lungs were not breathing. Again, I told myself to just relax into it, accept it and see what may come. The trip continued.
I instantly found myself transformed into a fish! This is very odd. I am not a fish person. I do not eat them, do not keep them and do not know much about them. Nonetheless, I found myself to be a fish in a fish amusement park. My movements were completely fish-like, sinous and undulating with no need for or thought of arms or legs. This fish amusement park was kind of like a contained waterslide (tubes not cut in half), but for fish. There were fun turns and circles to make in this "run." There were other fish there having fun.
On the walls of the run were pictures of "elder fish." They were tyrptamine mosaics. Literally, like Roman mosaic art, but the individual mosaic pieces were (of course) rotating, changing and composed of bright, irridescent, rainbow colors. Fantastic and beautiful.
It was fun being a fish; it felt primordial. Almost like a trip back in time/evolution. But, perhaps a trip forward, as there was these elder fish images, as if the fish had culture and some technology . . .
I soon found myself completely back in my body highly amused by the entire thing! I love the surprise factor and am continually amazed with what happens and the idea that all of this could be in my head. Things I normally never think about or give time to. Things I never imagined in any state of mind, never thought I could imagine.
Peace & Love,
Pandora
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