hi,

I feel like I have been cursed by certain people, and as a result of this I cannot grow, flower and evolve as an individual. I am trapped in fear, and because of this I am unable to spiritually develop. And to add insult to injury, I am constantly being mocked and harassed, not only by non-physical entities, but by people in 3D world as well. They say mean, petty things like "you lose, we win" and other condascending, insulting, annoying things. So not only do I feel enslaved on a physical level, but also on a metaphysical/spiritual level as well.

NO TALK ABOUT BUYING/SELLING, but now that I have it I have no urge to even use it. And I really don't think that taking dmt will change my life in a drastic, positive way. It won't free me from the shackles of worldy existence, and I'm pretty sure it won't liberate my mind, body and spirit from this metaphysical bondage either.

So basically I see myself as destined to suffer forever, as long as I'm alive, and then afterwards as well. I'm not able to do anything about the current situation that I'm in. The malicious powers that be have imprisoned my spirit under the weight of unsurmountable oppression and have reduced my consciousness to virtually nil when before my awareness seemed as vast as the oceanic existence itself.

Thanks for reading this, and if anyone has any advice or suggestions I would be happy to hear it.

frog

With that attitude and personal outlook, then of course you're 'destined to suffer'. You seemed to have already made your mind up from this post and seem to be solidified in your ideals.

May I ask what your suggestion is, then?

Have you tried DMT before? From the sound of your post to me sounds like you haven't.

This is just my personal opinion mind you but I would say you should not take life too seriously. Life is what you make it to be. You see and feel what you want to percieve.... If you think negatively you will tend to only see the negative and hear the negative and feel it. You need to change your way of thinking, change your self talk, be more open and receptive to more than just the bad.

It's easier said than done but I am living proof of two years in the making. I was a miserable soul but decided to revamp my life, change everything and stay to appreciate more. The people that matter don't mind and the people that mind don't matter.

EDIT: I would also suggest getting yourself in a better state of mind before delving into the grips of a DMT trip. Dmt can reveal some nasty things if your not in the right head space

Let go of that feeling, think about other things. Take a up a hobby you enjoy, and one you will think about a lot in your idle time. Basically, what i'm saying is take up a passion.

Ignore the outer world people. You are You. They are mere distractions that have no impact.

Hi,

My suggestion would be that you stop blaiming other people/entities for your personal suffering.
Don't forget everything is relative and nothing lasts forever.
Take the advise from others.
Read some books about Buddhism. You will learn that everyone suffers to a certain degree, it's part of the human condition.

Life isn't about winning or losing. Its not a battle between people. altruism is the name. I wouldn't care if anyone else thinks if u win or lose. Find ur own position and trust it.

Everything I highlighted above, you can see it in the way you write. If that's any indication of your thought processes and the way you view and conduct yourself with the world, then i'd probably start there. Get rid of all that [or work to get rid of all that].

There's no magical pill or cure. You have to have healthy activities - places, hobbies, friend/s, etc. That's really it. Develop these new patterns and stick them out, force yourself when you don't feel like it, and eventually things will change. It takes time [and alot of it].

Thanks for all the great responses, guys.



As mentioned elsewhere, I have tried "inhaled" DMT 4 times before, once as changa and three times as simple enhanced leaf. Also have tried dmt in a brewed drink several times.



I was born suffering and aware of the universal nature of suffering as part of the human condition always. I don't need a book to tell me this. I'm an ancient yogi from India, I'm not new to any of this stuff. Westerners take a few drugs and read some Eastern spiritual philosophy and all of a sudden become some kind of authority on spiritual matters. And as for the books on buddhism, I've read and practiced plenty over the years and I do not feel that this is a spiritual path for me. I'm not into Buddha or his largely cult-like followers.

I made an enhanced leaf with marijuana at a ratio of 1:1 herb : dmt but am very reluctant to smoke it, although I believe that it could provide me with just the experience I am looking for.

thanks for the replies and have a good day

I only ask if you have tried it because in my experience it has changed people's lives 99% of the time just after one experience, of course for the better.

Remember, nothing changes if nothing changes. For me to be me, you have to be you. If your impression of the world around you is less than desirable then that's what you will reflect.

I am by no means anyone special by my posts to you in this thread. I am just trying to share my experience I have learned through the years to change my perspective. It took work, lots of it too. I used to be in a dark place for a long time but I came out the other side a better person because I wanted to change. Only you will know what works for you. It's your life, live it while you can because while you sit stagnant it is passing you by

Hmmmm... I see a major problem with this statement, when looking at the OP.

Are you Nish from the Ayahuasca forums, by any chance? The OP reminded me of him... the style of writing seems reminiscent.

Yeah..



That statement right there contradicts your original post, because if that were the case then you most likely wouldn't have started this thread, or worded things how you did in the initial post.



If you're aware that suffering is 'a part' [and not the entirety] of life and/or the human condition and a 'yogi' [as you claim], then why the original post? It doesn't make much sense to me?

**By the way, im not picking, but i'm trying to understand what you mean exactly?

be well

He is and is now banned (again). Thank you for pointing this out.


Kind regards,

The Traveler