So... I brewed about 25 grams of Caapi vine, and despite the vomiting-inducing taste, my tiger spirit helped me chug it all down.
After that, I had a carrot or two, and then sat down in my meditation chair. Almost immediately after I became comfortable, Mother Ayahuasca appeared to the side and told me that I had correctly understood what she meant by not journeying for a year ~ low Caapi-only dose, no Chacruna, with me later realizing that Chacruna is not only risky, but also unnecessary, for now, as purified as I currently am.
She told me that my spirit guides would lead the rest of this journey, and promptly walked behind me and melded into my back or something. Then my focus suddenly shifted to my tiger spirit that was hugging me happily, head tilted, staring at me serenely, as if questioning if I still doubted her existence now, feeling her energy much more strongly than I ever had before. Then I noticed the eagle helper spirit on my left shoulder, and my crow spirit guide on my right shoulder. On the right, the wolf helper spirit, who nodded calmly at me, and my guardian spirit guide, who also nodded serenely. On the left, the five of my teacher spirit guides, and the Teacher from this vision:
https://www.dmt-nexus.me...aspx?g=posts&t=71742Then my tiger spirit softly asked me whether I still doubted, now that I could sense them all like this. I have no words for what I felt then.
Then my tiger spirit busily got to work fixing my head, as I had a mostly blocked left ear and a mildly feverish headache from the uvula infection I had. My guardian spirit guide worked on my stomach initially, so I wouldn't vomit from the nausea, then worked on my intestines for a short bit, then my throat. As they did so, everything was calm and went smoothly.
Then my tiger spirit went into my Third Eye, and busily cleaned it out some more. My thoughts whirled from subconscious anxiety rising to the surface, but she told to just ride with them, and that everything would be fine, because my spirit friends all were with me.
I went through many short dream sequences, and whirling memories that I had forgotten, all flicking by at a tremendous rate. I was calm and just let it flow.
Eventually, from somewhere within me, a dark orb of energy exited my body, and my Teacher spirit guide obliterated it.
After a while, my mind and thoughts tired out, and all of my spirit guides and helpers except for my tiger, my guardian and my crow bidded their goodbyes and vanished from my senses. Then, after a little while longer, the experience wound down, and I went to sleep, exhausted, but happy.
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“The dao that can be expressed is not the eternal Dao.”
~ Lǎozǐ
“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”
~ Carl Jung