I can relate all to well! I never heard of DMT until I saw that 'the spirit molecule'. I just knew I had to do it. It captured me and never let go. I felt a pull towards it like nothing else.
I recommend if you are feeling this pull towards DMT that you see it all the way through and create it in your life. I think you will find this process to be empowering. You want to see behind the curtains. So go and look!
It is not what you think it might be. It will create more questions than answers. You cannot put that one back in the box. Once you see, you see. You can't take it back. So make sure it's something you really want in your life. Then don't look back. Accept your decision. I for one never regretted any DMT trip I have ever taken. No matter if the experience was beautiful or difficult, I learned something.
Good luck in your psychedelic endeavors! Be courageous and trust yourself!
Peace!
"In the universe there is an immeasurable, indescribable force which shamans call intent, and absolutely everything that exists in the entire cosmos is attached to intent by a connecting link." ~Carlos Castaneda