! I really like the arabic style text in one of the banners!
anyway- I'm not new here, at all. Some of you will know and remember me (some of you will likely wish to forget, hehe) as RebornInSmoke, RiS, memphistopheles, bongra, and a bunch of other silly chat names too. but RebornInSmoke was my username.
I got banned (for the 2nd time iirc) for a year by Trav some years back.
when my ban was due to run out? 2096 or some far off date like that.
then it was changed after I think 10 months or so to the end of 2014 (extended I think due to me repeatedly coming in the chat under new usernames to ask why I was banned).
THEN I couldn't remember what my password was when my ban ran out. and I no longer had access to the hushmail or whatever email address I used for my account.
fair enough. I was focusing on life and myself and other stuff anyhoo.
Nobody told my WHY I got banned, but to be honest with AAAAALL my many, many infractions and warnings and suspensions prior to it, I'm surprised I didn't get banned (again) sooner.
(according to Trav I had the longest 'rap-sheet' in the history of the forum, and I wouldn't be surprised if I still do
)
I offer no excuses, but to anyone I ever irked or offended (I think it was only Trav tbh..), it was not intended. Those who know me know what I'm like (including Trav) and know I never had ill-intent or anything like that.
Aspergers/autism spectrum stuff plays a part in how I am and how I see and interact with the world. while not an excuse (and I really don't like talking about it in this kind of sense as I really don't want people to think I'm trying to use it as such or to "gain sympathy" or similar bs, I'm very "high-functioning", just very differently wired and "weird"
, for those who know what it is, it will maybe help you understand me a bit better and why I am how I am. (I even got banned from r/Aspergers on reddit
)
couple that with copious amounts of psychedelics and other stuff, and I don't listen much or follow rules very well, even if I don't mean it. (I never have been one to listen or to do as I'm told, so yeah)
so... sorry Trav, for anything&everything I did, either knowingly or not. you know I appreciated (& still do) what you do here and have love for ya.
anyway- a LOT has happened since then.
to be honest, the time away was good. I was using a LOT of lsd back then, along with a lot of mushrooms and other stuff. I no longer indulge in psychedelics although god knows I have had countless opportunities as well as I still have mhrb etc if I did want to, which I don't.
I rarely even smoke ganja now. the past 3/4 years have been spent going deeper and deeper into my spiritual journey and learning a metric shitton of information on all manner and variety of subjects including occult teachings and mysticism, hermeticism etc..
life in this infinitely strange and beautiful universe is ENOUGH of a trip without any external substance.
I also learned a lot more about myself, who and what I am (and it sounds cliche, but-) and have also matured a lot since then.
I don't know where I'm going with this now as I feel like I've been typing for ages, it's pretty late and I need sleep, but I'm back to see what's new, to speak to people I used to (if they are still around), to make use of great info on the forum and site, and to offer knowledge, information and advice to those who might need it or find it useful.
obligatory cool space pic, because it's me
much love <3