Hey folks, im always really bad at intruducing myself i like it more to get known or to get know people by just doing stuff. Or on the matter of a forum writing stuff. But as a precaution matter, that i can surely understand and also welcome to some degree, as it keeps out most of the trolls, you need to intruduce yourself somewhat.

Well i looked over the attitude thingy and must say i like most of the stuff about the "rules" here. I really hate it when i talk about certain stuff and people try to force their personal viewpoint on me, it looks like this should'nt be a problem here.

I also dont like to say who i am on the internet, in fact i dont even have a real facebook account and if you google my real name you will simply not find me. But in the attitude section it was also mentioned you should'nt give out who you are here anyway so thats another plus point.

I should also mention that english isnt my native language so there will be grammar mistakes.

So well to summarise my life till now in a real quick nutshell. I've grown up beeing the nice quiet guy till age ~12 then became the class clown guy till i joined the army with 18. Well i kinda kept beeing goofy but i toned it down a little especially at work. I've left the army after 4 years even tough it was the most fullfilling job i ever had till then, because of my dog. He was more important to me than my dream job and when you're in the army you're not home very often. After that i tried to be a prison guard, but after a year i quit that too, the surroundings in jail, the people (no matter if prisoners or guards) are just to negative. Also if you stare into the abyss the abyss stares into you and given enough time i could have become a very negative person wich i would not like to.

So for now im just a plain warehouse worker, wich is fine. It isnt the best job but it isnt the worst either, im still young enough to think about what to do a few years what to do job wise.

In matter of psychedelic drugs or any drugs for that matter. I've never taken any drug until i was 18, not even coffee since it tastes horrible to me. at my 18 birthday i just wanted to know how it feels to be drunk also it was shortly before i joined the army and knew that there will be some drinking. I went on with my best friend and we just bought directly the hardest stuff we could find. Schnaps, vodka, that stuff. Well it ended in me puking all the stuff out again and my friend left long before that as i behaved pretty weird (who would have thought ).

After that i've sworn i would never do alcohol again. Well i did, the army is really a bad place to not take alcohol here and there. But i found my way. I drink like every six months on average it's always very special occaisions, but then i just go for it. I found out how to be drunk without overdoing it and kissing the toiled and since i took psychedelics i even sometimes think 2 times a year is still to much. Psychedelics just shown me how bad of a drug alcohol really is.

So my psychedelic career started out not long ago. I always was into meditating, lucid dreaming and astral travels. I also came very far with all that stuff, there was a point where i could lucid dream 3 times a week and nearly got an out of body experience, i got too nervous tough and could'nt fully leave my body. And then i went to a tour of duty in the army wich basicly killed all my progress with that kind of stuff. A warzone isnt the best place to have a completly free mind you know .

Well it was long after that in fact i already left the prison guard job when somebody mentioned he had taken lsd and shrooms before. I was very interested in altering your councesness as this was basicly the same thing the meditating. But before taking psychedelics myself i thought it was about "woa dude im trippin out look at all these cool visuals" boy was i wrong.

When i actually hardened the thought of taking lsd i infromed myself a lot on the internet read a lot, watched a lot of videos etc... and found out that theres much much more to it than just tripping out. That totally hooked me up and i got somebody to get me some blotters. I took all the precautions you should take, set and setting, having a trip sitter and tested my lsd with a test kid. Nontheless i had a pretty "bad" trip (I dont believe in bad trips, "bad" trips show you stuff you need to see). But that really showed me i had to change some things about me especially get more positive minded again like i was in my past.

I said i never take lsd after that again as it was a pretty hard trip, but after integrading it and changing some things i did a second and it was far more positive. I should mention real quick the blotters had estimated ~180mu. After seeing that the world isnt what it seems to be i informed myself about other drugs and got into terrence mckenna wich finally lead me to dmt.

After hearing that you may enter another dimension with it i knew i must have it, so i got it. My first trip was 20mg to test it, it wasnt much and it was, except the first few seconds when you have that extremly uncomfortable weird feeling, a very very positive trip. No breaktrough just seeing some patterns and a beeing i saw in the mirror on lsd before, i wonder if i see it when i fully breaktrough and what it is. Even tough my trip was 100% positive i literally shaked in anxiety when i did the second time, i personally think its because the stuff is just so extremly overwhelming it gives you the shivers.

However my second trip was 30mg and the leftovers from the last trip. I just recently read that you should clean the pipe as the resign can cause a bad trip and is extremly harsh on the lungs. Well i found out the extremly harsh on the lungs thing myself as it really burned my lung so hard for a moment i thought i did it and killed myself. However the second trip was 100% positive again and i came so far after some really intense patterns (i close my eyes always btw) i saw a tunnel. I think just a little bit more and i could have broken trough it, well maybe next time.

I really want to make my third trip but im, even tough dmt was always positive, very afraid to do the next. At the same time i cant wait to break trough. Tragic isnt it

Well i came here in hopes of talking about dmt, trips and generally taking my fear of dmt and exchanging experiences. Other drug forums seem to only talk about lsd and maybe shrooms, but i kind of have the feeling dmt is the thing im looking for. I will find that out on my breaktrough but i also want to talk about my trips. I have good friends they all know i took psychedelics and i also can speak about my trips with them, but they would'nt take it themselves and thus i think they are the wrong persons to speak about this. This is mostly the reason i came here.

I also want to do more detailed experience reports of my 2 dmt trips and hopefully a third till then, when i can post in the experience report forum. But that has time till then i can at least read some reports and stuff.

Well thats that and if you have any questions about me feel free to ask ^^ .


C U on the other side.

Welcome to the Nexus and thank you for your introduction!

If maturity is what you are looking for in a forum, this is the place for it. The Nexus has a system in place unlike anything I've ever seen across different forums. It is all about harm reduction and accurate, relevant information. The people here are nice and genuine and always ready to give advice. That being said, I hope you enjoy your time here.

As for feeling the fear, I am with you 100%! It is only natural to feel that way and many, if not all of us, can relate. I've found that taking 30 minutes or more to relax, focus and breathe before taking the plunge has proven useful for me. DMT is powerful and demands respect and it is good to hear that you understand that.

Anyway, feel free to post trip reports or questions and to have a go at the questionnaire. These actions can help lead to your full member promotion!

Have a good day!

-The Grateful One-

Thanks for the welcome, one question would be i saw the questionare and thought, ah cool some questions and just started answering what i know not googling and stuff. Only after doing some of the questions i saw you were supposed to google the ones you dont know. I just came from work and kinda rushed it i dont want to excuse myself just wanted to know how much did i mess up?

Im doing the rest of the questions however how they're supposed to be done and for the trip reports i'll go for that maybe next weekend.

Also one more question only dmt trip reports or other psychedelic drugs too?

The questionnaire is designed to let full members get a glimpse into what new member's intentions are and to see if they are willing to do their own research. It is okay if you think you may have messed up a few answers as long as you genuinely fill out the rest. Contributing thoughtful and productive posts is another way to get promoted. Your introduction post was a good start, so here is one up vote from me!

As for trip reports, you can write about essentially any psychedelic experience you've had.

I was pushing taking another dmt trip in front of me for quite a time now. I just took a very low dose (20mg) meditated for 10 minutes with some relaxing music and did it. It wasnt much it was more a feel trip, my body feel like it was disolving and flying. It was very positve only very mild closed eye visuals but now i really wanna go deeper. It was my first time without a sitter (well my dog was here to keep the evil spirits away ) That very low dose and positive body high was really great evn tough it wasnt that much of a trip. I heard im now resistent to dmt for a few hours so i dont really wanna take another one right now and in a few hours is too late as i need to work tommorow. If the fear comes back next time i want to do it im going for a low dose trip like this and then shoot for the breaktrough, i read that helps a lot of people. Everytime i take the stuff i think to myself "why the fear?" even on the more intense ones. The more intense it got the better the trip went even for me.

Wow i just noticed im extremly talktive when coming down. i should stay away from forums while that well wish me luck that i can go for the breaktrough next time. And im looking forward to write down my old other psychedelic trips here. I like the positivity fromt he board that i've seen so far.

Edit: But damn is there some way to get that plastic smell/taste out of your mouth? Its hard enough to smoke the stuff while beeing a non smoker.